December

its december!!

Alhamdulillah masih bernafas. Dec 7th again.... iM 26..

yang pasti, bulan yang paling sibuk tahun ni...nak siapkan segala galanya....ya Allah betapa serabutnya.....

harap semua keje keje sekolah tak terbelengkalai dan keje tempat keje dapat dibereskan segera sebelum tukar ke area lain.

area baru-kawan2 still sama cuma a few jela yang baru...tp yang paling nak dielakkan adalah jumpa dgn prof...arghh still tak mampu..masih perlu berdepan dgn dia...huuuuuu

apa pun....hopefully 2015 goes well...

of: days

counting...

counting again...

and again....

tak percaya yang dah nak end of 2014. cepatnya...

tak percaya, it is almost four years to finish study. come to this, arghhh..sangat stress dengan research :( especially bila laptop problem in certain software and the best thing is takkan nak pinjam laptop orang especially orang tu not keen to lend the laptop. emm....tula kan, kawan time susah tak ramai, time senang tu berduyun duyun beratur :'(

takpelaaaa...at the same time counting days to my wed.... tapi rasa cam lame lagi..tapi bila bagitau orang datenya, semua cakap tak lama lagi...entahlaaa

hope semua plan ni berjalan dengan lancar dan baik.

tak sabar nak selesaikan semua ;)

of; kedai kopi

just having my breakfast.

like usual, tempat makan tapi yang berbeza is all alone cos sume tak sampai lagi.. am i early today? tapi tak jugak cos mak cik mak cik dah ada. dari jauh lagi dah dengar suara mereka bertiga.. riuh!

i was wonder, at the age of them, what supposed they do.. means: borak borak mcm kat kedai kopi, mengumpat sana sini, kutuk orang itu ini, membangga diri, cakap tak ada adab (out loud), annoyed people around..and the best thing is in the early morning,,,masa untuk rezeki masuk tu.

i dont bother them but i have to sbb the small room cant afford to tahan the loud voice. their act, their laugh...all bother me.

its not saying that i want to buruk buruk kan org and tell the world yang kita ni baik sangat. it is not! totally not! sometimes, it cross my mind that.. is this the mentality of officer and the person yang kita anggap kakak or mak. cara cakap seperti orang yang tak belajar adab.

i have seen others at their age. tak de pun yang macam tu. mostly are matured and avoid from having those attitude.

i am young.. we are young.. (include my friends) we all just the same, having a lil chit chat, laugh together, share the same problem, everything are happy but we are not annoy others by our action.

till now, i wonder! are they happy being that way?

anyone have the answer?? huu

pray that i away from all the keburukan....

of: sawang

i just realize that everybody has just shut down their blog.

---still working on updating news, never thought of leaving my blog----

random thought

i love working here.

Half of them (colleague) was my friends during school but some of them are just new to me.

what make me stay?

1. of course tanggungjawab. for me, definitely to survive, my parents who has been sacrifice a lot to raise me up, and for my future and 'amanah' (Him).

2. my career. i was the one who hate this field but after been 3 years experienced, I fell in love. HARD!! Indeed.. Work with people are a lot more harder than work with machine. But look back to 'pahala' you get, what wait you in hereafter are bigger than what you sacrifice, you will never turn back. TRUST me! when come to sincere kerana Allah. Everything never failed!

3. Mak cik Mak cik:--- they wont be able to graze the heart and emotions cause i have them 'friends'. bertuah sangat bila dapat bekerja sebumbung dengan kawan kawan yang bersekutu dengan kita. Yes, sangat bertuah. whenever you feel down, they are here for you. I love working with them: Fida, Izati, Kak Wani, Zila, Iman. Pika, Pya, Salima, Mira, Zul... They are my supporters..

so, it is amazing i can replace a bad day to a beautiful smile. (friends)

of; hated

i hate her..

i super super hate her..

sometimes hati ni ada batas sabarnya..

so kalau dah beyond my patience.. i could not stop from getting angry.

- abaikan perasaan emosi ini -

of; hate, annoy and thought

being youth in population of mak cik mak cik is not easy as we thought..

i just hate these environment *work*...

i ve been busy the last 9 months for these tough and rough days.

time was chase me. home, work and school.

stress??

ask me if any days that i would escape from the word of *stress*..

i know. im not the only one having this feeling yet other friends may feel the same.

work; this year was tough! crazy! i had wrote once or twice earlier 2014. and it continuously. i just dont know how to describe but the thing is i just cant wait to change to new area. working with different partner. kick out all the pressure. having good environment (that could be an exception unless that mak cik walk out from the department) huuuu...


school; alhamdulillah... Its A FINAL SEM!!! YET YET........a killer sem.
RESEARCH FEVER... tak sangka, pejam celik pejam celik..i almost almost done...sikit je lagi...work out sikit je lagi.....pray for me...

Marriage; He had plan everything for me.

-- i will update more soon --

of; proven

girl; u abaikan i sekarang

him; u tak sayangkan i lagi...

girl; u abaikan i sekarang

him; i luv u

girl; buktikan...

him; tengok kat jari u....

girl; ###smile####

sometimes heart can be manipulate by third party *syaiton*.. be considered to your iman and taqwa. trust and believe in fate and His promises...

of; head

sometimes its easy to say rather than make it.

huu...

i will make a story someday..

time to busy with this research...

feningggggg!!!

of hope and dream

pray for all the best and better life in future.

may our knot last forever.

#engaged

that moment

#alhamdulillah...
#alhamdulillah...

love keep us together..their bless brought us happiness.

thanks Allah for giving me such a wonderful moment with him.

You're the apple to my pie.
You're the color to my eyes.
You're the beauty of despair.
You make me happy everywhere. You're the cringles to my smile,
You are the pilot of my plane.

Saat paling bahagia

While i'm in the middle of finishing my case study slide and essei. My head was remind me to one of my patient.

An indian lady with 60 years old. Diagnosed as stroke for past 1 month and had therapy with me for 2 weeks. Alhamdulillah she went home well and had so much improve. And thank to my partner 'pt' for working together with me. This is all for our pt' sake. Alhamdulillah.

Before she been discharge to home. I have a chance to say goodbye and have a lil chat with her. She thank me during her lunch and said that she was bless by 'God'-indian pt, to be here as she get herself well and improved.

There is a story that she told me before she leave. She told me that the day she been admitted to the hospital she was depress and give up due to her condition which is weak and unable to walk as previously.

She also had a suicidal thought and wanted to terjun bangunan to kill herself cos she claimed that she is useless at that time but she is lucky to see a rehab doctor that console her to stay for a few days for rehabilitation and had make promise to the pt that she will get herself to walk again and funtion like before. As long as she is doing all the therapy intervention. Even though not perfectly like before but at least she cant be so dependent to others.

I know that the doctor is trying his best for his pt till he make a promise. Maybe that is one of the way to get the pt improve and keep away from those 'bunuh diri' idea.

And to tell you. The promise that he makes. The pt made it. She can walk and she could perform all the task like previously. Alhamdulillah.

This is not to tell that we can predict but this is to tell that effort and trust is important.

Yes.. It is..i dont know about u... But to tell you, to see your pt you treated getting well was a moment yg sangat bahagia.

Yes. Bahagia ;)

Ramadhan soon..

Ramadhan is coming. Pantas sungguh masa berlalu. Just remind me to my last fasting and during that day i wish ramadhan never end.

Time flies.. In the midst of 2014. What 'amal ibadah' that have us collected? Huh!

Wonder. Think.

Still figure out. Am i wasted so much time within this time.

I wish this ramadhan will be better than last time.

News

Last i post was 4 months ago. I ever had stories to write on but time was never pleasure me to do so. Working in the new area this year make me feel lazy to write. Bukan apa. My day time tiring physical and mental so at night is my time to rest and shut out all the mess.

Tonight, got time to write some. Not some but at least one.

Nothing much to say. Just update some life stories. Ever since working in ward esp the tough placement. I was in doubt. Hurm... Tak payah cite sgtla ea...

Well. Think this is all i wanna update. Will update more later.

I know I have U

Merenung ke luar jendela
Melihat kebesarannya
Mensyukuri segala nikmat
Yang dikurniakan di dunia
Kau berikan ku kekuatan
Tuk berpegang pada jalan
Walau penuh dengan cabaran
Ku tahu ku adaMu Tuhan

Kerna kau yang satu
Yang setia bersama ku
Dikala ku jatuh ku bangkit kernaMu
Ku tahu ku adaMu disisi ku selalu
Bantulah hambaMu mencari keredhaanMu

keep moving

Happy new year.

think that it is not too late to wish. just have a chance to write in blog for this 2014. urgh.. what a life kan...
Yes, i am very busy since end of 2013 and this early 2014. settled sown my last area and prepare for new placement. yet, the tough than before. prepared in physical and mental as well.

at the same time, facing my final exam, completing the assignment, make my presentation slide (till now still pending) and counting to go back home. home sweet home..errr not yet!

nothing much to update.

here, 26 y/o i am....still got lot of work to do. still reaching for something that impossible to get. doubting each of my decision, waiting for the moment that will never happen and still dreaming of the happy ending (hopefully), playing over my head, cheating on my heart and whatever in mind now.

urgh, what a rough day!

well, i just go with the flow. doesn't want to pressure me cos i am the only one yang strive over.. so mean!!!!!!!!!!!!

huh.. got a go..still working on my slide. update soon ;)

Let Her Go...

Well you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you’re missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go
And you let her go

Staring at the bottom of your glass
Hoping one day you'll make a dream last
But dreams come slow and they go so fast

You see her when you close your eyes
Maybe one day you'll understand why
Everything you touch surely dies

But you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go

Staring at the ceiling in the dark
Same old empty feeling in your heart
'Cause love comes slow and it goes so fast

Well you see her when you fall asleep
But never to touch and never to keep
'Cause you loved her too much
And you dived too deep

Well you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go

And you let her go (oh, oh, ooh, oh no)
And you let her go (oh, oh, ooh, oh no)
Will you let her go?

'Cause you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go

'Cause you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go

And you let her go