Insyaallah, Let's Recite a Doa

Subahanallah... just reading a newspaper last night and view my fb account? so many walls that posted Selamatkan pelajar dan rakyat Malaysia di Mesir and as normal i just ignore it maybe it just a little news or just something that not important for me to know. God my bad! i was wrong till i read a newspaper and watched news at tv3 Buletin Utama. MasyaAllah. what is actually happend?? there is a riot in Mesir? How about Cairo and Alexandria? place that mostly our students are there...Oh the place and people is in danger. God, panic suddenly came. and in sudden i pray God to help them and protect them from all inconvenience.

Huh!! as i know there is nothing i can help them from here but the only thing that i can do is just pray for their safety and hope everything will be going to fine and calm. insyaallah....

Last Sunday, my sayang Tikah did text me and told me that she is worried about her sister in Mesir but she didnt tell me what is actually happen and i was guess that it just a family matter but i was fall behind without know the news. hah my bad again!!! last night i text her and asked her again about her sister. how she's going? did she fine? My sayang said, her sister did text her on Sunday and that was the last message from her sister and she cannot reach her till now. Ya Allah, how she feel?? she must be really worry right. Oh no!!!!

As we know, all the communication have been cut, plus the internet have been blocked and all the food supply is really hard to get... oh how trouble they are? and the place is really scary and was in chaos. The bad thing is when the prisoners are everywhere and without police to preserve over the people and the worse is our siswi in there is in so much dangerous when i was reading that one of our siswi have been rape...Oh is it for true? Ya Allah please keep them away from trouble.

As i read also, there is a gunshot everywhere its really scary and they are need to stay at home and stay quiet to avoid from the prisoner to come.

and i have read that the evacuation is in action. even though there is still a problem with evacuating the students but they still trying too. Huh!!! :( praying that everything goes well and nobody left out. Those who are already come back alhamdulillah and now its time to pray for the rest.

Dear readers and malaysian, lets raise our hands together and recite a doa, hope God permudhakan segala urusan in Cairo and protect them and give a safety for all the people in mesir. Even there is no our relatives or fellow in there but please spread the words and pray for them cos they are part of us as Malaysian and Muslim. Insyaallah Allah is watching them.

Let us together cos our life it just not about you......

http://krisismesirnasibrakyatkita.blogspot.com/
http://www.facebook.com/pages/Selamatkan-pelajar-dan-rakyat-Malaysia-di-Mesir
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http://english.aljazeera.net/watch_now/

Choices

too many confusing choices in our life and sometimes we dont really know which is the best part of choosing perhaps we do afraid of choosing those.. why should i be afraid of choosing? Its either i want that way, or another way right? but the thing is which is better for me??its confuse and its really haunt me. Every time i’m facing this matter i would just quiet and go with the flow without choosing one of them and at the end i’m make myself in trouble. Oh my bad!!!!!

Life??i’m choosing life with working. Messing up my mind thinking about job, students, posting area, people i have met, people that i treated, people that i need to discus with, and its really tested my patience all the time. That’s what i chose for my life. Working after finish study, its really hard for me to make decision actually when mom ask me to continue study and i have meet a problem of choosing study or work....huh!!! finally i choose to work first but then now i’m thinking of further study. As usual, mom is the first person who is happy with my decision and i think its a good choice for me. And i will make it till the end and reach the success.... J

Friends??i got lot of friends...but know what? My past i only chose to be friend with the people who is good looking, good attitude and the best part is people who only in group of smart and intelligent. And ignoring the people at the last number of class in school. How bad i am??its like a discrimination right. I never talk and even look at them.. but after i’m entering in UiTM and studying in Occupational Therapy, learning about psychology, social, communication skill and code of ethic, i’m getting to change the perception and start to mingle with others doesn't matter who you are but still be aware and chose to be friend with nice people....and leave the people who have bad intention and taking advantage from me. That i always keeps in mind.... J and now i’m happy cos i had a very wonderful friends in life who always help me and be my side whenever i need them. And to know what friend is the important list in my life after family......

Partners??? I actually dont prefer to talk about somebody special in my life...i dont know, maybe because its quite bother me since i have a sadness and disappoint experience in the past with someone that i really care and love with all my heart. L its past and i should not let the past haunting me, its time to make a move and look forward. Time to start a new chapter and make the story with a happy ending and no tears in every sentences and let words make people glinting in a laughter when they read it. There are few people make me laugh, make me happy, make my heart blooming and some of them wanna have a connection, wanna a serious commitment, wanna share the heart together but to tell i really dont know which one to chose..its not choosing one of you, but afraid of choosing to start a new or still in this way.. i dont know... and i always pray God and asked for help but it just i didnt get the direction yet. And i’m not in rush cos time is needed now. And the only one that i chose now is U.

i have learned from my bad choices and next time wont settle for anything less than what I deserved... :|

a big smile on an exhausted face

alhamdulillah... sebulan dah pon lepas dan tak sangka cepat betul nak masuk February...huh!! sungguh cepat masa berlalu..rasa macam baru je semalam kita sambut new year kan... takpela minggu depan pon kita akan sambung new year jugak... Chinese New Year... tahun baru jugak kan tapi bagi kalendar Cina la......

emmmm...and yang paling penting esok balik KL....ahakz!!! hari yang di nanti nantikan, akhirnya....seronok betul perasaan hingga tak terkata la..alamak terhiperbola plak... em disebabkan excited nak balik KL, time nie la demam datang menyerang aku...huh dah dua hari demam, telan pil pon tak baik baik jugak di tambah dengan KK yang asyik hujan je...and ditambah jugak dengan aku yang selalu main hujan aka terkena hujan.....apa nak buat kan...

arini balik kerja sembahyang asar, tukar baju and cabut ke KK...mana lagi pasar philipine la...sebab nak beli barang yang dipesan mama and abah.... and nak menikmati mertabak yang dari haritue lagi kempunan nak rasa....akhirnya dapat jugak makan. tapi rasanya mertabak kat Kl lagi best kot dari KK...kat sini mertabak die inti sayur kobis and telur dan yang tak bestnya, mertabak ni digoreng...so too oily bagi aku... and dorang makan ngan sos cili..tula penambah sedap mertabak tu....ok jela tapi takla superb...

sebelum ke pasar Philippine aku berjalan nun jauh ke KK plaza..ingatkan dekat rupanya jauh ke depan... orang cerita je dekat tapi bila jalan kaki cam aku ni memang confirm penat tahap dewa...haish!!!! pecah peluh gakla ditambah dengan kaki aku yang dah melecet sebab pakai selipar. ingatkan pakai selipar ok, rupanya lagi sakit....sepanjang jalan aku terhenjut henjut...
mesti tertanya tanya kenapala aku sanggup jalan kaki jauh jauh nak pegi KK plaza.. apa je yang best kat sana??? actually ade orang bagitau brooch kat sana murah and lawa... so disebabkan aku ni excited and tak sabar, ape lagi pegila..cari cari kedai kat dalam tu, samapi je kat kedai tu, belek belek mane yang best, hasilnya hampeh..takde pon yang berkenan di hati..memangla murah tapi tak lawa la......huh penat jeeeeee.....

then patah balik ke pasar...belila makanan untuk dinner then terus ke plaza wawasan and balik hostel...huh really exhausted...sangat~~~~~~ lepas mandi and solat terus packing bag untuk ke KL...nasib baikla ade orang teman aku berkemas takdela kebosanan dalam kepenatan....

done!!!!!i'm done packing...penat sangat arini...tapi hati aku gembira....so tak ingat sangat kaki yang sakit, kepala yang berpusing pusing, tangan yang lenguh, mata yang terkulat kulat....hahhahahaha itu tandanya aku dah mengantuk....hehhehehehhe

okayla gtg, esok kene bangun awal. flight pagi pagi and tak sabar nak jejak KL....and home sweet home... :)

Aku Tetap Menunggumu

Aku takkan lelah menunggu
Hingga waktu ajal menjemputku
Takkan pernah ada sesalku untuk menunggumu

Aku harus tetap menunggu
Hingga nanti aku berbaring
Sampai mati aku akan tetap menunggumu

Ingin ku gapai bulan dan ku petik bintang
Ingin ku berikan semua hanya untukmu
Agar kau tahu besarnya cintaku kepada dirimu

Ku ingin kau tahu tentang perasaanku
Ku ingin kau tahu besar cinta padamu
Ingin ku berikan sisa waktuku
Dan sisa umurku sampai mati

Aku harus tetap menunggu
Hingga nanti aku berbaring
Sampai mati aku akan tetap akan tetap menunggumu

Ingin ku gapai bulan dan ku petik bintang
Ingin ku berikan semua hanya untukmu
Agar kau tahu besarnya cintaku kepada dirimu

Ku ingin kau tahu tentang perasaanku
Ku ingin kau tahu besar cinta padamu
Ingin ku berikan sisa waktuku
Dan sisa umurku

Ingin ku gapai bulan dan ku petik bintang
Ingin ku berikan semua hanya untukmu
Agar kau tahu besarnya cintaku kepada dirimu

Ingin ku gapai bulan dan ku petik bintang
Ingin ku berikan semua hanya untukmu
Agar kau tahu besarnya cintaku kepada dirimu

Ku ingin kau tahu tentang perasaanku
Ku ingin kau tahu besar cinta padamu
Ingin ku berikan sisa waktuku
Dan sisa umurku sampai mati

Irwansyah - Tentang Perasaanku

sebuah keinsafan

bila berseorangan macam macam perkara yang terlintas di fikiran aku. tiba tiba teringat akan sebuah perpisahan yang berlaku hari jumaat hari tue. perpisahan manusia dan alam nyata. huh memang sedih bila lihat kematian saudara seislam. terus aku tersentak dan menunduk seketika, jika esok itu lah takdir ku. ya allah aku mohon padamu ya allah panjangkan umurku.

terimbas semula dosa yang masih belum terhapus, pahala yang sekecil zarah ,amal yang belum cukup, iman yang belum tetap, hati yang kusut, oh tuhan aku mohon darimu beri waktu tapi aku sedar bila ajal itu tiba, pergi tetap pergi.... Masya allah....

selesai solat fardhu aku memohon doa padamu ya allah.....

Ya Allah, sesungguhnya aku memohon kepada-Mu seluruh kebaikan, baik yang

sekarang maupun yang akan datang , yang aku ketahui maupun tidak aku ketahui.
Dan memohon perlindungan kepada-Mu dari seluruh kejahatan, baik yang
sekarang maupun yang akan datang , yang aku ketahui maupun yang tidak aku
ketahui. Ya Allah sesungguhnya aku memohon kebaikan yang diminta oleh HambaMu dan Nabi-Mu, Dan aku berlindung kepada-Mu dari kejahatan yang hamba-Mu
dan Nabi-Mu berlindung kepa-Mu darinya. Ya Allah , sesungguhnya aku memohon
kepada-Mu Surga dan apa-apa yang dapat mendekatkan kepadanya, baik berupa
ucapan maupun perbuatan. Dan aku berlindung kepada-Mu dari neraka dan apaapa yang dapat mendekatkan kepadanya, baik berupa ucapan dan perbuatan. Dan
aku memohon kepada-Mu agar Engkau menjadikan seluruh ketetapan yang telah
Engkau tetapkan merupakan suatu kebaikan.
amin....

manusia pernah jahil, manusia pernah lakukan kesilapan, manusia pernah leka, pernah alpa, pernah lalai, tapi sesungguhnya ketahuila bahawa tuhan itu maha pengampun, maha esa, dan tuhan itu maha kaya.... pulanglah dan bersujud padanya ya allah.......

Give me some sunshine

lagu nie ditujukan khas untuk aku :)




chill chill dieba :)

super duper gloomy weekend

sweltering!!! word to describe KK right now...and because of that i was stranded at home and have a super duper gloomy weekend. aaah...:( hate the moment and really pray it goes fast and straight to another 3 weeks so i can fly to KL..... home sweet home....huhuhuhu.. miss old time back to hometown.

choices??? i can chose to go out have a good shopping in KK, or beach day cos there are a lot of pulau in here or having makan makan at pasar philiphine or travel away to simpang mengayau or hot spring or other beautiful view like tamaparuli, kudat, kundasang and many other place..... hah... really wanna go those places but i am so much lazy to go out alone, i dont know which bus to go to the place or any other transportation, hot weather and sometimes an unexpected heavy rain, and i am quite broke at this time.... hahhahaha.... :D it's okay i will continue my travel in KK next week.

what would i do when i'm home??? normally wake up in the morning wash my clothes , get shower, having a breakfast, turn on my lappy, checking my fb account, comment and post on wall, download a song or movie, reading a news and some gossips, update my blog, watching lifetime movie and the last thing that i do is get to sleep..... OMG!!! how bored my life...huh....

what can i do?? this is what i chose for my weekend and at the end sigh i am bored!!!!!! :(

ullalla...i'm freshing it :)

hehehehe.... got new background for my blog.... segar gitu!!! ngeeeeee......
a bit colourful but i like cos look lovely in a lil pink and blue a bit..... actually wanna put all in pink tapi its look over plak...so just a lil touch of pink and sweet sweet brown... :)

tak sempat nak letak gambar...but will do it soon.. :)

a new look and a new me....not mine but mind..... nothing will change me, i am who i am that you know now or past..... never ever be strangers to others..... ;)

lovely and lively..... good night :D

boy you disgusting me!!!!!

what would you do if you see someone that you know do something that disgust you??? will you just stay cool and pretend that you not see what is happening or you are running away from that person or you are telling that person to stop doing the bad thing....hah!!! that so terrible for me when it happen in front of me and that person keep doing that thing and did not realized that someone is watching and it was me who the one to be the person who are watching it till the end!!!!!!!aahhhhh......

yaaaaaaaarrkkkssss!!!!disgusting...wek :| i dont know what best words to describe how horrible it is....i saw my students 'lighter nose' when we are doing a discussion...OMG OMG OMG!!!!!
euwwwww....use his finger and get into the nose and lighter lighter and about quite time he let the finger get into the nose more deeper and moving inside the nose.....OMG...suddenly he take the finger out and play with the thing and a bit gentel gentel the thing then he flick it away.... OOOHHHHHH!!!!! luckily i'm away from him... then he doing the same thing and now he smell the finger after lighter the nose...Oh no!!!! that is so disgusting!!!!!

then, it become worse and more disgusted when he is wipe his fingers on his clothes and i saw the things fly down when he flick it from his pants....God!!!!! he is so terrible.... then again he smell up the fingers...and the bad things is he did not wash his hands until we went home...........
with the dirty fingers he is play with chess and touch his friends...Ouch....yaarkkkkksss.......
masya allah....luckily he is not my friend and i just went away and stop looking at him....

till the end, i did not tell him that it was disgusting!!! should i????? oh its better dont, and better to stay away from him..oh i dont know or i just let it be.... whatever it is, i really wanna to tell him that boy you are disgusting me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

a little smile after all...alhamdulillah

salam.. alhamdulillah this week is going smooth and well. everything comes and goes with full of fun and leave me cheer and a beautiful smile on my face. i think its quite long that i didnt have such this feeling... Oh i thank God to give me the gift especially at this moment when i'm facing a stress of work, troubles that i made, difficulties cos of my weakness, feeling of guilt, a sorrow that never end, homesick to go home, missing people and sometimes a bit jumpy about future... i really dont know how to describe the feeling, its mix up and mess up!!!!!

hah, but i'm waking up, i got myself back!!!!! i'm still alive, i could breathe in every time i'm facing a stress, i could think to solve all the problems, i got my strength to fight the weakness, i got friends and my sayang2 who always be my side to keep me away the feeling of guilt, i got family who always loves me and wanna look me happy and i got God who always listen to my prayer... so much thankful.

i am very motivated to go work for this week, finally after 2 months. hahaha.. i dont know what kind of magic that change me to be more cheer and really good in work but it doesnt matter right as long as i'm doing it for myself and i am happy!!!! but i believe that god always help us...and again i am thankful for that cos after all i got my smile. alhamdulillah....

i should know

urrrrrrmmmm..... susahnya nak mulakan entry ni cos fikiran aku sekarang nie dah bercelaru. macam macam dalam kepala aku sekarang. huh tapi yang pastinya hati aku!!!! hai hati kenapala jadi macam nie. ade perasaan marah, sedih, benci, kecewa pon ade. huh!! tak taula mungkin disebabkan keadaan yang sangat meruncing sekarang......

benci betul perasaan macam nie!!!! yang pastinya ade orang sedang menipu aku dan aku dapat hidu bau penipuan itu... memang jelas terang dan nyata. kata2 kat aku bukan main bermadah pujangga, berjanji setia tapi bukan sebab cintala....tapi rupa-rupanya!!!!! like what i'm expected.....aku benci dia....bijak betul dia, mencari cari ruang mencungkil cerita pastu akhirnya jadi cam ni...i should know that early...kenapa aku terlalu percaya!!!ahhhh aku benci dia sangat2.....

takpela sebab aku dah kenal sape dia sebenarnya, aku takkan layan dia lagi. terus terang, ko dah buat aku yakin pada kau tapi last2 bila aku dapat tahu sesuatu tentang ko...so that's it!!!! aku tau aku tak boleh halang ape2 tapi tolong jangan menipu dan mempermainkan aku....patutla!!!! biarla aku sendiri yang simpan.... memang sepatutnya aku tau sesuatu and memang bijakla ko buat pilihan camtu sebab aku tak sebaik si adik ko tu kan.......i shouldn't know someone like you and i hate you for all my life!!!!!!!!

emotional disturbance

i am so damn bored today...huh!!! keep thinking of going out or just stay at home with lappy watching lifetime movie or just roll on bed or reading blogs, playing games ah...i dont know it such a suck.. living at this life gonna make me really crazy, theres no one to talk too, and even to laugh..haiya..that's my life for another 4 weeks in Sabah. as i was alone, there are so much feeling come, a lil homesick, memory of the past, smiling thinking of the funniest thing that suddenly came, mom and dad, day out with my sayang2 and never to forget You..

huh!!!! how's life??that people always asking me when they text me or leave me a message in my mail, when they call me...well this is my life now...pretty bored right!!! nothing good.. but i keep survive till the end of the day. maybe now i hate that so much but soon after i'm back i gonna miss the moment here. i'm sure i will!!!!

forget about what has happen last week is the hardest thing perhaps!!! emotional disturbances...that what i faced last 5 days. huh!!it was worse feeling i ever had. scolding the students, unmotivated to work yet not really in conversation with anyone. all i do is just smile and sitting alone thinking of home. bad bad bad!!!!! i know how much worse when you had emotional disturbance, it just not work, study, socialize but its affect your behavior too..same goes to me..fortunately i'm not that severe and not kind of going to be an emotional disturbance but it just kind of stress a bit about work. i'm chilling myself now!!! having myself a stress management that i always do to my patient and i'm applied that to me with some relaxation therapy... hah....heaven.. :)

another 2 weeks to go to work before going back to KL. cant wait to be home, meet my mom dad and sisters and my sayang2..... love that.. :*

i hope i can be that patience to wait the 2 weeks and have more cheer in my day... and hope not so much stress come up after this.. hah i really want my life back!!! i really want myself back...
i want to laugh at loud, i want to have fun with my sayang2, i wanna make a lie to my sayang2, i wanna a feeling of manja a bit..., i wanna have a good meal on every my mealtime, i wanna my bed with bantal busuk, i wanna everything back!!!!!!!!! God help me, keep me strong in another 4 weeks here.... ooh..:(

pray for a good thing...amin...

ape kes??

sibuk view2 page membe2 kat fb nie..terviewla page sorang membe ni....
adehs!!nie compem dah bosan la tu plus idea ngok dah datang....ntah ape2 je status korang....
yang tak menahannya orang2 yang comment pon layan jak...hahahahhaha....

i doubt you do

just short entry....

honestly i doubt with someone aka i dont really trust you at this moment...
and now i think i'm getting a phase of hating you, but i just hope i dont!!!!! i dont know is it a lie, is it right, or it might be an assumption :/, frankly speaking...i really sick of it...
and i really dont know who you are now??? hah!!!!hard...i'm sorry if soon i didnt reply you or ans you cos i really doubt on your honesty!!!!!may be that is it!!!!!!

mess up

what's wrong with me...dari pagi tadi hati aku tak sedap je...like something bad will happen...so much things in mind.....it keep mess up.... i don't know what i'm thinking about... oh i hate this!!!

just pray it goes away!!!!!!!!!!!!

apology

salam :)

happy weekend all.. :) kind of bored here even company with students but no point bagi aku sebab masing masing melayan perasaan sendiri. arghhhhhhh!!!! bosan sangat2.. maybe because i'm kind of talkative person so bila time2 yang sepi macam nie aku rase sangat2 sunyi... dreaming of bestie around...huhuhu...at least they could listen to my stories or share their stories too.... ooh!!! :(

okeh whatever...act i really wanna apology to my mom especially, my bestie and whoever yang berkenaan.... this is not really a big deal pon tapi kind of bersalah jugak...this week is really hard and mess for me!!! struggling with student's presentation, books, reviewing chapters, studying new2 things, pressure and stress the 5 days...huh!!!! tak taula nak describe macam mane keadaan aku yang sangat2 full of chaos....everything come one by one. lepas settle satu, satu lagi datang.. back to back~~~ entahla, how stress i am..... kalau buat hospital anxiety and stress scale test nie.. comfirm result aku severe...oh!!!!tidak~~~~

today, its getting okay... back to the apology thing. for last week, i didnt call mom!! but i did answer her call, tapi mase tu cuma cakap sekejap je cos i was sleeping. i didnt reply any messages from bestie. sorry sangat.. those who i did reply, that's good but reply macam2 tue jela..i am so sorry.. whoever friend that call me, and i didnt ans you guys...also i am sorry...for this whole week memang aku tak layan phone..all is my lappy and books....

its really stress week act. balik rumah, mandi, solat and start review books, checking the slides until midnight. just a lil time to update blog..tapi memang tak de mase nak berdiskusi....then get to bed...huh!!that's for 5 days...skipping my dinner is the bad things and i'm getting weak!!! today is weekend, everything is back to normal..but it will be a busy day for me for next 2 weeks..again!!!presentation.....huh!!! and bdw, thank God for the presentation yesterday...takdelah aksi tembak menembak sangat yang berlaku!!!Good for that..

cuma ade perkara yang buat aku sangat bengag bila ada orang yang cuba mengganggu dan memburukkan student aku!!!! and i really pissed of with her!!! ade mase aku citer lagi.....

Just pray for the best 5 weeks left... amin~~~ :)

again...back to kl

just finish booked my ticket to kl for this Chinese new year..yeayyyyyy!!! even it kind of waste but who care???that's my money and even mom dont mind it!!
i'm happy for that since i'm not going to be alone here. i'm such a lil bit homesick right now..huhuuhu... :(

cant wait to finish my posting in KK..i really need my life back..I really need my bestie around and need my enjoyment on every weekend.... I really need space which is the happiest moment in my days that i didnt find here..... I MISS ALL the things in KL.....Oh NO!!!
keep me strong God to face another 5 weeks in KK....

Insya Allah everything will be going okay for another 5 weeks..my wish!!!

stress syndrome

MOTIF ENTRY HARI INI ADALAH UNTUK MOTIVASI DIRI SENDIRI SEBELUM MELALUI HARI ESOK...HARI INI DAH SELESAI...

~KATA KATA PUJANGGA merepek je aku~

gud luck untuk esok.. CHAIYOK!!!

kuatkan semangat MESTI!!

bersedia dengan perisai PALING POWER

tingkatkan kubu pertahanan BELUM CUKUP KUAT

cekalkan hati TAKOT dup dap dup!!! (siap amek bacaan lagi result 112 pulse)

banyak banyak berdoa AMIN

semoga bertabah PERLU!!!

jangan menangis INSYA ALLAH~~

berdebar debar

salam.. :)

hari ni aku tak nak cerita panjang2 dalam blog sebab kejap lagi aku kene start study kalau tak start awal comfirm tepat kol 10 aku dah selamat... selamat atas katil la...sekarang ni pon aku dah rase mate nie bergoyang goyang tertutup rapat...aduh!!!harap harapla dapat bertahan tambah bila perut dah full tank...

dari pagi tadi hidup aku dah start kucar kacir plus huru hara...bukan sebab aku yang huru hara tapi sebab student aku..nie sume gara gara CASE STUDY!!!!! hampeh...dah sebulan bagi mase tuk siapkan case study tapi sorang pon tak siap..hish nie nak ngamuk la nie...bayangkan esok dah present...memang aku dah tahap dewa punya marah ar pagi tadi. kalau bukan sebab aku yang jage korang memang lantak jela case study korang tu siap ke tak, tapi sebab dorang ni bawah tanggungjawab aku... tue yang aku geram giler~~~yang paling penting sekali case study tu akku kene chek sebelum dorang present kalau tak mampus kene tembak dengan terapis lain. aku juga kene jawab.....hish!!!!dah la bila kita marah belh plak wat lawak.. bila aku dah start ngamuk baru la nak kecut, terketar2.....

berdebar2 aku tuk esok and jumaat ni...macam aku je yang nak present. walaupon bukan aku yang present tapi aku takot jugak kalau2 student nie tak reti jawab time present tak pon terdiam ke, salah banyak ke...ish...risau2!!!! bukan ape, present case kat hospital ni bukannya sama ngan present dalam kelas...sume terapis tengok, sume nak comment, sume nak tanya, sume nak hentam...habislah...cam zaman aku student dulu jugakla...haish..bila cakap sal present nie memang nak terkeluar jantung....penah jugak aku menangis sebab takot nak present...tapi akhirnya dapat jugak aku mengharungi presentation tu and siap dapat pujian lagi..amin..(riak la plak) :)

apapun gud luck to my students and me..semoga aku dapat mengharungi dua hari presentation yang hot dan aksi tembak menembak esok...tak taula bape banyak peluru yang kuar and senapang ape yang dorang gune...jangan bom dahla...takot2!!!!huh dah cam aku yang present plak....k gtg nak g study dulu......

wink2.. ;)

hari pertama sekolah

Ayuh kembali ke sekolah... ayuh!!!!!

selamat memulakan sesi persekolahan kepada semua pelajar pelajar tak kiralah tadika ke, sekolah rendah ke, sekolah menengah ke tak lupe jugak budak2 U.....hari nie first day sekolah di buka kecuali kedah dan kelantan...dan first day jugak aku start kerja lepas bercuti...mesti tak seronok kan sebab dah rase nikmat cuti yang lame tibe2 kene bangun pagi gosok gigi, mandi air sejuk, kene gosok baju...eiiii tak best2....

tapi ade jugakla yang excited bila sesi persekolahan di buka..heranla kenapa dorang suka kan..tapi aku tak!!!selalunya budak2 pandai je yang suka pegi sekolah (dah jadi stigma la plak padahal memang wajib pon pegi sekolah..adui..)okeh2...takpela tak kirela suka ke tak kan yang penting pendidikan tu penting!!kalau tak kerana pegi sekolah jumpa cikgu, belajar, jumpe kawan2, buat nota, amek test and exam tentu aku tak seberjaya sekarang nie...syukurla aku di beri peluang ke sekolah.... tapi aku dulu masa kecik2 pegi sekolah bukan nak belajar tapi nak jumpa kawan2..boleh maen2..sebab kat rumah bosan tak ade orang sebab mama and abah keje...huhuhuhuhuhuhu....(niat teruk betol!!!)

hahhahahaha..bila dengar lagu iklan kat tv sal baju sekolah tadi teringat plak kisah mase aku masuk sekolah dulu2...start dari tadika sampaila aku masuk U..U pon kira g sekolah jugak kan...memang itula kenangan yang aku tak boleh lupa..bukan aku sorang je tapi mama and abah pon selalu cerita kat aku setiap kali sesi sekolah bermula....apela yang best sangat kan...

mase tadika kecik2 dulu rasenye 5 tahun kot, aku ingat lagi mase first day, aku menangis tak nak masuk kelas...aku siap tarik lagi baju mama, tak leppas langsung siap peluk kuat2 lagi..cian mama, dahal mase tu dah lambat pegi keje..last2 cikgu datang amik aku bawak pegi pintu kelas....dekat pintu tue aku menagis gila2 tapi mama and abah blah camtu je..time balik abah amek,..sampai umah terus merajok tak nak makan.....hahahahahah...last2 abah pujuk pegi beli coklat kat kedai...pastue ok...pandai bapak aku behavior mod ea....pas setahun aku tukar tadika..aku pegi tadika dekat dengan rumah mak yang jage aku..best sangat2...sebab kat sana ade kawan maen2 aku..so pegi balik tadika jalan kaki....tue pon sorang2(mase tue takde kes2 rogol, culik budak2 nie..selamat je..)mase kat tadika nie aku tak pernahla nangis2..dah ok sket...
tapi ade satu insiden yang agak malula and aku nangis balik umah....huhuhuhu..malu ar nak citer....ish2..besela budak2 kan...hehehehhe...mase tu aku sakit perut gila2..konon2nya nak tahanla balik nanti beru melepas..tahan punya tahan..sedar2 aku dah tercirit dalam seluar....ayoyoyo..mase tu aku terus jumpa cikgu and cikgu pon panggil anak mak yang jage aku tu, tak silap aku namanye kak shila...so kak shila datang bawak suar and bawak aku balik...mase kat tadika tu, suma budak2 ketawakan aku...huhuhuhuhu..malu2..balik je terus nangis....:( esoknya tak nak pegi sekolah dah.....tapi cam bese kuasa ke kedai abah aku la yang buat aku bersemangat balik nak ke tadika...ehhehehehhe..

habis tadika, nek darjah satu plak..mase darjah satu niela yang paling tragis and sangat teruk aku rase..niela tahap kritikal aku mase mula2 masuk sekolah...wakakakka....bila mama cerita lawak gila and malu pon ade....hehehhehe....mama cakap mase mula2 masuk sekolah dulu abah antar...hari pertama pegi sekolah aku dah start pegang tangan abah..masuk kelas, duduk atas kerusi abah tinggalkan nak pergi keje...setapak je abah kuar dari kelas aku terus lari peluk abah....wuaaaaaaaaa.....sampai cikgu masuk aku peluk lagi kuat2...tapi cam bese cikgu tarik gak aku abah pon blah tinggalkan aku..huuhuhu..sampai habis kelas aku nangis....petang tue masuk sekolah agama...same jugak aku tak nak masuk kelas sebab macam kes pagi tadi, abah tinggalkan aku..pastu abah temankan dalam kelas...sampai cikgu masuk abah kuar, tapi abah janji tunggu kat luar..aku pon okla since aku tengok abah pakai baju bese je kan. memang sah abah cuti hari tu....sepanjang kelas aku asyik ngadap muka abah je, takot abah hilang.....legaaaaaaaaaa........sampai balik abah tunggu aku...esoknya pon sama...lebih kurang seminggu abah amek cuti temankan aku kat sekolah....

habis seminggu, abah dah start keja..abah dah bagitau awal2 nanti kat kelas duduk elok2 ea, abah kena keje tau..terus mengalir air mata aku...sudah!!!!!!habisla....sampai kelas abah tinggalkan aku...ape lagi terus aku kejar abah...cikgu kejar aku...dah jadi babak kejar mengejar...dah hantar aku balik ke kelas...abah kuar, aku lari lagi..cikgu kejar aku....tangkap aku masuk kelas...abah tunggu aku leka...tapi aku sikit pon tak lepas pandangan....pastu abah belah...aku lari lagi kali ni satu sekolah aku lari..cikgu pon kejar... so babak kejar mengejar ni dah round satu sekolah...masyaallah....dekat sebulan lepas tue baru reda....tu pon lepas aku dapat kawan....kawan aku mase tu aku tak ingat la namenya...ehhehehehe....tapi bestpren aku mase sekolah rendah dulu meeza and jaida....baik pon kitorang, gaduh pon kitorang...hhahahha...kanak2 ribena kan.....tapi sampai sekarang still contact lagi..cuma tak la rapat...

yang tak leh lupa mase sekolah rendah nie, ade satu ari tue mase aku darjah dua kot...aku nak amek buku dalam beg, tengah bukak2..tiba2 ternampak satu benda..mampus!!!kalo orang tau ni mati aku...malu!!!!!!rupa2nya aku terbawak botol susu pegi sekolah...ya rabbi!!macam manela botol susu ni boleh terselit dalam beg aku ni.....kantoi ar cmnie....sepanjang hari aku duduk tak senang..takot orang tau...syukur...sampai aku balik botol susu tu selamat.....lega lega....:D

macam2 cerita time sekolah dulu2...kalau nak tulis suma agaknya berjela2la cerita kan....lawak ade, sedih ade...memang best zaman kecik2, mase sekolah dulu2...rasenya kalau ade mesin untuk patah balik masa di jual memang aku beli...seronok nya amat2.....tapi syukurla dengan keadaan sekarang ni...ini pon dah nikmat jugak......hurm memang betul kenangan tu sentiasa ada dalam ingatan kita, takkan boleh padam!!!!cuma janganla kita kenang2 kan lagi kenangan sialm yang pahit...amik yang happy2 je....okeh2 ;) wink2....

okeyla rasenya dah banyak aku tulis nie..penat dah jari2 aku nie menaip..dah rase kebas pon ade..nak rilek2 jap sebelum tido...... :) pasnie dah agak bz nak mengupdate blog...kalo sempat aku tryla...kalau tak.....hurmmmmm..yang pasti takdela sampai berkulat..... :D

akhirnya, alhamdulillah

burppppp!!!alhamdulillah....kenyang perut lepas melantak sebungkus mee hoon goreng ayam..:) cam bak kate arwah nenek, gendang gendut tali kecapi, kenyang perut senang hati....hehhehhehe....:D

act bukanlah nak cerita tentang kekenyangan perut aku ni sangat tapi nak cerita tentang perkara yang berlaku secara tiba2 yang aku sendiri pon tak sangka dalam masa yang begitu pantas...hish, ataupon aku je yang tak perasan sebenarnya masa dah berlalu lama...ape2 jela...ek (ape yang aku merepak nie)..

okeh2, baru je tadi aku view fb account aku and bukak new feeds, tibe2 terkeluar satu album dari si tutt yang bertajuk 1.1.2011...wow!!!!tarikh tu cantek maybe secantik perkara yang berlaku dalam gambar album tue. so aku pun takdela start klik lagi kat album tu just wonder2 dari pix tue...cam pix putih2 je...pastu ade selendang ngan songkok...aaaahhhh......sah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sebelum aku sahkan pix tue, tiba2 aku teringatkan perkara antara aku ngan si tutt.. tutt nie adalah kawan satu college ngan aku mase kat uitm, satu course yang same cuma mase tu dia amik degree and aku diploma tapi batch yang sama.....act takla kawan sangat, kitorang start kenal pon mase same2 satu team bowling untuk OT day. start dari situla kitorang kenal plus dia la ketua pasukan kitorang and diala yang banyak bagi supoprt time bowling day tue. and since tuela first time aku maen bowling and sangat nervous and takot...tuttla yang banyak bagi dorongan chewahhhhhhhh...yela untuk team kan...:)...and lepas dah aku buat beberapa strike (bangga sekejap) akhirnya team kitorang menang....best sangat2 time tue....eh eh bukan sebab ada tutt tapi sebab aku menangla. yela tak sangka leh menang sebab dalam kepala otak aku nie asyik fikir kalah jer.....

okeh dah tak nak citer panjang2 sal pertandingan tue...sambung balik pasal tutt.....lepas beberapa minggu aku menang, aku terseremapk tutt kat college, dia nak bagi aku voucher pizza yang menang aritu, but then aku malasla since aku dah nak g praktikal...so aku cakap tak pela just take it...and dia mintak no telefon aku...bagitau yang nak contact kalau ade ape2 berkenaan voucher cos dia tetap nak bagi aku voucher tue lepas aku balik dari praktikal....
okeyla aku pon bagi je cos tak pikir ape2 pon......pastu sumeny kembali seperti biasa....

beberapa bulan lepas tu, ade orang anta message nak berkenalan, aku ignore je.. MALAS nak layan...then no. yang sama miscoll...aku pon anta message tanya nak ape??? (garang lah konon kan) pastu dia kenalkan diri sebagai tuttt...oooooooooooowwwwwwwwwwwwhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!
kenapa tak bagitau awal2 kan dah kene sedasss ngan aku.....ahahahhaha..malu konon...:)
taik kola nak malu2..daripada kene hentam ngan aku kan lebih baek ngaku takdenya aku marah..gedik tol si tutt nie.....dah lame2 kitorang contact si tutt pon meluahkan isi hati dia yang terpendam......SAYA SUKA AWAK!!!! mak aih terkejut aku....habis ko mintak no aku ni sebenarnya bukan nak bagi voucher tapi nak ngorat aku..alamak bro....adehssssss!!!!

nasib baek mase tue aku dah habis belajar, dah tak akan jumpa ko lagi..hish selamat selamat..kalo tak malu aku!!!!so selama tula si tutt messsage, call and pujuk mintak couple nagn aku...hurm...tapi sori to say i got someone that i care about...bf awak ke???kata si tutt....mase tu aku single je tapi aku tak sedia nak couple2..so he got that!!!then aku pon merisik khabar membe2 aku tanya sal si tutt...then dah dapat info..banyak jugek rahsia tentang si tutt ni kat tangan aku sekarang....lepas aku tak layan message and call die, si tutt pon sepi...KECEWA barangkali...:( hampir setahun gakla dia tak call, message or buzz aku kat ym...tapi kitorang still contact lagi tapi just through fb. tue pon tanya gitu2 je...then due2 sepi....

tau2..arini bukak fb tengok pix....ooooh dia dah bertunang...alhamdulillah~~~~akhirnya dia dah jumpa dengan orang yang selayaknya dan boleh membahagiakan dia...amin...aku rase cam gembira sangat tuk dia....bagusla!!!sejujurnya tak de sikit pon rase cemburu or dengki tapi bersyukur sangat tuk si tutt....hurm aku tak berkesempatan lagi nak wish kat si tutt...cam seganla!!!takpela aku wish dari kejauhan jela...huhuhuhuhu......ape pon aku doakan semoga pertunangan ni sampai ke perkahwinan ea...aku doakan yang terbaik jugak....semoga berkekalan sehingga ke akhir hayat......AMIN~~~~~~ :)

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happy new year everyone...tak sangka cepat betul mase kan. jam pun dah kol 8 lebih. dah nak masuk hari kedua tuk tahun 2011...cepat sungguh masa nie...dan yang penting aku dah ade kat kl and esok going back to KK balik...Sabah bah...malasnyala nak balik sabah..huhuhuhu..tak puas lagi bercuti kat sini. malas nak masuk kerja, malas nak melayan kerenah students, malas nak tengok patient...arghhhhhhhhhhh.....tolong2 i need some motivation here.....

harap aku dapat kuatkan semangat aku dan meneruskan lagi 8 minggu aku kat Sabah.....tak sabar nak balik semula ke KL....isk isk isk....alamak tibe2 mood homesick dah datang....tak suke tak suke.......................:(

act ade sesuatu yang nak ditulis kat entri ni tapi tak de idea nak mulakan cerita..tolong la anyone help me!!!selalu macam nie....ade cerita tapi tak tau macam mane nak mule...then let the story go........hurm....dah seminggu bercuti kat kampung...arhhhhh seronok sangat sangat....spend time kat rumah, tidur2, goyang kaki, makan sedap sedap......hish best2 tak payah susah2 nak buat keje rumah cos my sis here....since musim cuti sekolah kan so just give an order to them, so everything done!!!!!teruk kan...ahhahahahaha...takdela sampai bossy sangat....
still tolong jugak dorang.....

spend lot of time with fam is really fun.....and tiba2 teringat diskusi aku dengan my sis masa kitorang kuar lunch kat secret aritu. rasenye cam dah lame tak hang out ngan die....so, time makan2 tu she did mention about a matter...pasal status....

hah..bila je die sebut pasal tu terus aku cam malas je nak layan.lagi lagi tanya sal status..bencila!!!! tapi sebenarnya bukannya die tanya aku pon tapi dia nak luahkan perasaan dia tentang status.... owh okehs aku dah tersilap tembak la...:D sori2.....

ceritanya is my sis so bengang dengan my cousin sebab selalu tanya die dah berpunya ke??bila nak kenduri??kalo dah ade janganla senyap2 bagitaula..... Hish sibuk je....tue yang buat die pissed off sangat and yang paling best is bila dorang sibuk bagi nasihat kat my sis: sound like this "dalam umur yang macam ni (24) dah patot ade yang special tau, bukan ape takot nanti lambat kawin, tak de orang nak aka tak laku, nanti jadi anak dara tua plak"...perghhhhhhhhh!!!!!!memang ayat takleh blahla...patotla kakak aku pissed off...kalo aku pon memang aku bengang jugak....nasib baikla aku takde. tapi dalam pada aku takde kat situ dorang sibuk2 tanya sal aku plak, then ayat selamat kakak aku is tanya sendiri la...

kepada cousin aku- taula korang dah berpunya, dah ade bf tapi tak payahla nak show off. it just bf bukan laki korang lagi. anything could happen. bukan aku mintak tapi its still long journey meh...tak payahla nak tunjuk2 sangat yang korang tue hot cam pisang goreng. ergh..menyampah!! my mom pun tak bising2 so what????

okla let it slow down and calm....act bukan tak laku or tak de orang nak...(must be proud of yourself). it just we not ready to have a relationship or connection with any guys. we like to be single. at this age, masih muda lagila banyak perkare yang belum settle down, tak puas lagi menikmati hidup yang bebas tanpa dikawal oleh sesiapa unless mom & dad. besides, tak perlu ade orang cemburu, tak perlu cemburu, tak perlu jage hati, tak perlu dilukai... happy dengan hidup macam ni..nak kate sunyi..normalla kadang2 tu sunyi jugak tapi not all the time cos we had friends...friends stay forever than bf. Once you gaduh macam2 boleh jadi kan.. we had fall in love before..loving someone, care of someone and even now...it just not the right time. we need time for that. bila dah sampai masa we tell you about it. dont worry about us...

its not easy to find the right man for you, not the one who perfect but just good to be yours. love is subjective, you can get it anywhere but true love you gonna find it and feel it...that we didnt found yet. just need a lil more time....

menjadi seorang yang single is not that bad. bagi aku it just okay. nothing to worry sebab aku percaya kita telah diciptakan oleh Tuhan berpasangan di dunia ini...it just try to find it and ask God whether that is my right man???.. He will show you....cuma cepat dan lamabt, itu suma urusan Tuhan. percayalah cinta itu ada pada setiap manusia..

so, that's it...no love for now. bila sampai waktu tuhan kurniakan cinta itu pada kita dan itulah cinta yang diredhai oleh tuhan dan direstui oleh ibu bapa kita. so take it..it will...one day~~~

last word for me......LOVE WHEN YOU READY, NOT WHEN YOU LONELY