kajian............

its researh feverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!

seriously sangat sangat stress dengan research proposal ni...

tak sabar nak habis sem 3 and hantar research proposal nie...

dah berpusing-pusing kepala nak siapkan...

aduh!!!

boleh tak nak upah orang buat research nie....

ok gtg

its time to be

nerdooooo

nite nite nite ;)

before it end

rasanya dah lama tak update blog. seriously sangat lama compared to my addicted in updating every single event last time. itulah, bila masa sering dicuri dengan kerja, assignment and etc. i just can't help it.

can't really blame them, it is all what life should be. 

enjoy!
sounds like tak ikhlas...daa

but i am happy what i had been through now.

____________________________________________________________________

back to early 2012; 

when i got myself busy with work and study, nothing to be worry unless seat on exam. 

scary lol!

subjects was killing me, definitely referring to  the 'anatomy' and most is completed all the assignment.

bla bla bla...

semester 3. here i am! should thank God that i still survive until here while the rest  has drop the study due to.... many many things especially for those  who are married.

well, they might have a reason to leave and...

yaaa...

let them go!

while i stay, and keep moving :)

2012: 

things happen! a lot!

got my tears drop, been cheated, betrayed by people, hurts, cries, sober, heartbroken 

don't wanna describe all as it is annoyed.

i am annoyed to these feelings.

you may say the same, do you?

well, this is what i had take from what He set on me.

mungkin ada hikmah di sebalik luka dan duka.

the beginning was painful!

but part of it was a strength from my faith and prayer. 

then, i live and i survive.

:) :) ;)

can u see those smiley.

i am happy now!

for what He gave me, from what i convey!

i bow Him for 'syukur'

for giving a lot more from what i need

before 2012 end:

my birthday! i love telling about my birthday. nothing much special but the huge was i still breathing with people i love.

*all of them*

ain't it too special? 

Only God knows.

i move ahead and leave the hate

have a bless 
& 
happy new year

welcome 2012

Your Mercy

while being busy with assignment, my eyes was searching for a song and guess this song is well heard for us as #muhasabah towards our #saudara in Gaza.

sing by Sami Yusuf which the good singer i adore his music in #dakwah.

Make me strong: just keep your eyes through the lyrics 

I know I’m waiting

Waiting for something

Something to happen to me

But this waiting comes with

Trials and challenges

Nothing in life is free

I wish that somehow

You’d tell me out aloud

That on that day I’ll be ok

But we’ll never know cause

That’s not the way it works

Help me find my way

My Lord show me right from wrong

Give me light make me strong

I know the road is long

Make me strong

Sometimes it just gets too much

I feel that I’ve lost touch

I know the road is long

Make me strong

I know I’m waiting

Yearning for something

Something known only to me

This waiting comes with

Trials and challenges

Life is one mystery

I wish that somehow

You’d tell me out aloud

That on that day you’ll forgive me

But we’ll never know cause

That’s not the way it works

I beg for your mercy

My Lord show me right from wrong

Give me light make me strong

I know the road is long

Make me strong

Sometimes it just gets too much

I feel that I’ve lost touch

I know the road is long

Make me strong

off Gym on New Area

almost one and half year working in Geriatric and i am counting days to leave them all. seriously, this is sad!  i'm gonna miss them!

i wrote a lot of my experience working with these grannies and older people. they were so adorable! guess that this word suit to describe them.

back to 2011, the day i enter the ward, i was telling myself that i shouldn't be here.
November 2012; a month to go to leave the ward. the first place was the best memories :)
tell me if you are not agree!
i feel reluctant to leave.

 although sometimes I complaint about the workload, things are pretty crap boss, but it always heal with a smile, singing and temperament from these old people, I think I have found the cure.
well, have friends who have always been together during difficult was the thing that is very needed.

however, I pray and hope that the new place is more fun and more happiness.
I will miss all the memories that I have here.

pray for #Gaza

another attacked for #Gaza. 

many of whom innocent have been killed. many lives go!

 almost all of them are suffer not for only the *jihad* they have made but as lamenting the loss of loved ones. 

Subhanallah. 

Pray for # Gaza

children who do not know anything also become a victim.

their cries were ignored.

their screams and appeal met with gunfire.

how cruel people. inhuman!!!

while they never attack back at them.

 hopefully their *jihad* been blessed.

Pray for #Gaza

I was a bit sad to talk about the hardships that they face. the enormity of the challenge  they have to face. Allah surely test them with such great. May they been protected by Your Iman *faith*.

Pray for #Gaza

I'm pretty proud of friends here who care for them. I first noticed of it when looking at many of other friends who put a picture on their facebook. seriously, please spread the prayer for them all.

pray for #Gaza

they have been through it for so long, I know they do not fear but even more brave and strong to overcome all the suffer. but, when will their suffer end? dead! Dead for Allah, *jihad* for agama!

we may not be able to resist those evil but we are able to give them a prayer that grant the faith and patience to overcome all fear and misery.

Pray for #Gaza

Daripada Abi Al Dardak RA bahawasanya Rasullulah SAW bersabda :

Sesiapa yang berdoa bagi saudara islamnya dengan tidak setahu saudaranya tersebut, 

berkatalah malaikat yang bertugas itu Amin..dan engkau pula akan beroleh seperti itu juga.

(Daripada Abi Al Dardak RA)

random thought #2

tak sedar yang kita hampir menamatkan tahun 2012. hanya tinggal sebulan lagi untuk melangkah ke tahun 2013. how time flies.

and another a month i'll reach 24. still young hah though the number not showing as it is. well 2012 was went through my life. and as usual my brain will definitely count on every scene and event that occur within this period. life cycle always caught into happiness, sadness, axcitement, dissappoinment and most unforgetful memories.

no matter how life i went through,i thank Him for letting me open my eyes and to see His creation and enjoying the nikmat with people i love.

alhamdulilah, my parents was good in health, my sisters keep moving and making their success and myself, i got things that i wish from last year even not fill all the wishes.

how about 2013?

Let me keep until i get what i had wish. one and most! may He listen to my prayer.

work: counting days to leave. seriously i am sad leaving the grannies and lovely friends in gym. they were made so much fun and jokes. i'm gonna miss them. hope, the new place will bring a better environment. sobs sobs...
i was staying for about one and half year in geriatric. a lot of things i learnt from it and a lot of people i had seen and the lesson i take put me into a person which more to humanity and responsible. i am gonna miss them :(

study- third semester, bundles of assignment to submit, revision for weekly test.tired, hard and sometimes i ever thought of giving up! bad hah. but mom and dad were the reason i stay. *promise to finish the study.*

housemate-losing my housemate. she move out to her hometown. she was the mulut murai among others...Miss her a lot ;(

disappoinment- everybody went to this stage. losing someone and to get it heals was suffer. my cure was the prayer and redha.

anugerah- He took from me but He still give what i need. that i called His bless. thank Him for heal my heart and give me a lot of faith in facing these.

life wasn't perfect based from what we dream but life would be perfect by His bless from what we need.

May He with us. assalammualaikum

of redha and kufur

every moment we went through was His plan.

every things that we received, all from Him

every nikmat we taste was His gift

every smile we made was His bless

every tears we drop was reminder from Him

it's us to redha from what we had or kufur from what we took!

this is the time to learn appreciate life and syukur toward Him

no matter how much u losing or gaining thing, please!please dont ever *kufur* from His nikmat (grace)

'sesungguhnya Tuhan sentiasa memberikan sesuatu yang baik dari keburukan yang kita lalui dan janganlah kita berpaling kepadaNya kerana diuji dengan ujian dariNya kerana ia seolah olah kita kufur akan nikmat yang diberikan sebaliknya redhalah akan ketentuanNya dan cubalah memperbaiki kerana setiap usaha kita akan di sertai dengan restu dariNya..insyaallah ;)

Dia yang kau pilih

pray better than hated :)

Note

Improve!

New semester!

Again, my life get busy. Assignment, test and one and most important *research*. Hah. Can't tell you how worried i am in handling the research at the first stage...absolutely blurr, wonder and struggle to get the topic. Huh finally the topic was taken and now in collecting data and study how to do a good research.serious this is the hardest period...insyaallah i survive....

Law! Again seating for this subject after the last college. What to do, i still need to take the same subject in bachelor...hurm hope i could make it cos this was killer subject.

Arabic language...after 12 years left the words.i wonder if i still remember those vocab. Like my ustaz said.....if you can recite quran then you should have no problem to learn it well. Insyaallah ustaz..i will...

Had couples of subjects more and i guess this semester i need to give more effort on it..

Lazy day...should keep it away ;)

Got to go.... Will write soon.

Needs and Desire

sometimes we blame Him for not giving us what we wanted and sometimes we forgot to thank Him for what we had.

i had what i need!

i lost what i want!

i avoid things i hate!

but i got what i claimed i wont!

then, i thank Him for things that i need better than i wanted.

this is how He test us! we gain thing, we lost one, we lost one, we had more!

mom ever told me, everything have been set up. 

and His plan better than our dreams

and one more!!

you never regrets :)

have great weekend 

Priscilla Ahn - Dream (Official Video)

dieba here

bloom bloom

found this song... nice

Dude Feat Asmirandah – Bunga-bunga Cinta [OST Dalam Mihrab Cinta]

Asmirandah:
Tak pernah terlintas di benakku
Saat pertama kita bertemu
Sesuatu yang indah tumbuh dalam gundah
Harum dan merekah

Dude:
Tulus hatimu buka mataku
Tegar jiwamu hapus raguku
Memboncah di hati harapan dan suci
Menyatukan janji

Asmirandah & Dude:
Bunga-bunga cinta indah bersemi
Diantara harap pinta padanya
Tuhan tautkanlah cinta di hati
Berpadu indah dalam mihrab cinta

Dude:
Tulus hatimu buka mataku
Tegar jiwamu hapus raguku
Memboncah di hati harapan dan suci
Menyatukan janji\

Asmirandah & Dude:
Bunga-bunga cinta indah bersemi
Diantara harap pinta padanya
Tuhan tautkanlah cinta di hati
Berpadu indah dalam mihrab cinta

Asmirandah & Dude:
Tak pernah terlintas di benakku
Saat pertama kita bertemu
Sesuatu yang indah tumbuh dalam gundah
Harum dan merekah

Asmirandah & Dude:
Memboncah di hati
Harapan dan suci
Dalam mihrab cinta

Read more: http://buzzera.blogspot.com/2011/02/lirik-lagu-bunga-bunga-cinta-ost-dalam.html#ixzz25xxSGYRt

there will be a rainbow after rain

assalammualaikum..

first of all, thought that i wont write again but yeah i think i should admit that i cant stop writing, in fact i want more and more post every entry everyday. serious i tell you that i have lot of stories that i wrote but most of them were half written and save in. well dont know why i dont proceed or finish all the stories.. emm

maybe, part of the stories still dont meet the conclusion or in easy words i dont know how to end those stories....grrrrrr

okay forget my unfinish stories....

hey..... have a great raya everyone!

i bet you guys have a wonderful eid with family and friends.definitely you are! and definitely have a lot of time visiting friends and relatives in raya.... serious my jelous!

working on 4th raya was very bad for this two years in row....huuuuuu sedih tak...'touching' but thanks mom for understand me and giving me such a huge huge motivation for my working day.... sobs sobs...

preparation..not much like usual..maybe i know from early that i wont celebrate raya that long...so make it sederhana....

best part for me in raya is exchanging posto raya...it shows how much you remember your friends and especially friends that you have lost your contact for quite sometimes and they was your childhood friends..surprisingly, where did the card came with the right address...serious gempak..but the technology never let us down... searching people through fb, google and what so ever..and there is your friendssss...

well, i miss ramadhan! you too right... i still can say this is not my perfect ramadhan...huu but alhamdulillah the day was went well ;) should have another fasting day....misssssss so much.

i have been through so much rough day within my left to this blog...facing over workload covering people, tiring day, unhealthy body, unstable mood and emotion. i am struggling in my exam and finish all work before the deadline...hummmm
well, should not be mengeluh kan... its tanggungjawab and it is amanah.. no matter how hard my day, it never drop me... He always with me. and to Him i pray for...

huh, now i am in better...just sometimes the past passed...He knows all the plan. accepting all the ways He made for qada and qadar.

so, i think i write much... enough for now...promise i write again.... ;)
good night.

beautiful akad

alhamdulillah akhirnya dah selamat seorang lagi kawan melangkah ke alam perkahwinan.

i dont expect she will end to marriage this fast..this is rezeki this is fate this is jodoh this is qada and qadar.....alhmdulillah..she deserves the best...and again mengelakkan fitnah!

and one thing i know about our wedding...hee soon *nak berangan kawen jugak* is a place where we gather all and have a beautiful moment despite the last convocation that we left for a few years back and everybody have chose different path in life..and i miss those moment.








this is what i miss about gathering! laughter and smile was part of our food.......

love those moment! may He bless our friendship the truely relationship we had. no bitter heart...ameen

bismillah

second paper done today!
quite hard 'return to work' which i could say interesting subject but need a lot of reading method to understand. huh....

two days in row, tomorrow will be third paper to sit. seriously mental was tired and nerves never stop.

every time final exam came the situation was same. the noise, nervous, the chaos was everywhere. you can look how struggle people to chase time before enter the exam hall and keep finishing all the chapters.

but

i was seeing this today while waiting to enter exam hall. a group of man 'adik-adik' was seating on floor all of them and 'khusyuk' with the notes on their hand and selected every pages of the paper to not missed any chapter before enter exam hall. after ten minutes my eyes come to them and seeing they was raise hand and recite for doa. one man was recite doa while the rest was 'amin' for the prayer.... how wonderful they are....

i dont say i am not making doa. it just they were so unique that reciting it together with khusyuk and tawakal.

that amazed me!

before i end, prayer was a weapon to everything you have. i bet you its true! thanks Him for giving us an easier way for help! wallahualam ;)

random thought

in the midst of my study and listening to Melly Goeslow's song *butterfly* sejak popular dalam cerita Dejavu Kota Kinabalu terus addicted and haunt my ears. seriously the song was good.. i love the melody.

dejavu!

yes i miss sabah days especially when i watch the movie. it was remaining me to the day that i had been through in sabah. i miss those days.

my wish, i wanna come back to those places i had visit but time was so limit. work and study stop me from doing so. in sya Allah, if there is a day that Allah give me, i will!

exam! nervous. definitely toward all of us. the first paper i seat today syukur, He gave me a better day, good health, calm and thousand of ideas compare to last exam where my health was very bad! syukur again.....

family, miss them a lot! mom and dad prayer goes along with me and my pray to Him will never stop till i go. in sya Allah....

hati. alhamdulillah...hati semakin tenang dan mampu untuk meneruskan kehidupan baru. pray him a good life with one that he choose and pray Allah to give me my mr right. never look back to past but keep move on and chase His love more and more. sober!yes i am but He cure me with His plan like mom ever told me ' Tuhan tue dah susun elok dah' perhaps He has better plan for me which may safe me from go worse... wallahualam ;)

percaya pada qada and qadar. yes i believe! pray and doa are weapon to fight all the troubles. that i am sure!

wish me luck for my final ;) syukran.

i still alive

sorry for the long mute.

i'm taking time to write this entry since work and assignment was my best buddies at the moment plus my unhealthy status. it was fever on and off, sore throat that make my night scary and flu for day by day make me weak. well the weather now seem very bad hah. medicine and rest seem helpful but again fall sick when the non stop work had to be done every day.

no worries! i'm getting better.

actually i had a lot of stories to share here but time was so limit for me to update but i promise when semester break and my work getting smooth i will again.

i miss writing here.

tell you i really miss my blog update!

hey i think i better off and get my lunch first... i 'll update soon after my final done ;)

back to the place

this is the hardest part in my life!
love matter. again love.

mess mess,

after all i have been through in falling in love to manusia ciptaan Tuhan. again! i can only stay in the same feeling. tell you that this is not easy. letting it go while your heart scream and hold it tight. another heart beat beating all over inside me.

sometimes, there is time you cant stop remaining and sometimes you wanna let it go. you couldnt help it. you just can control it.

alhamdulillah with Allah in my way i kept doa and doa. my last hope is only doa and tawakal.

everyday i pray Him to take back the love from him and give me the love toward Him more and more. so i could survive and live in a better life.

though one day or soon, there is a man who knock the door, it still left same. hurt and sober!

stop for a moment and find damai and redha. then find the one that Allah chose in the first place for you and finally it heals you.

may He bless always with me ;)

His love

alhamdulillah disebalik kesedihan Tuhan kurniakan kebahagiaan.

rasa tenang berada bersama insan insan yang menyayangi kita dan sentiasa mendoakan kita.

mungkin juga kita perlu menerima dengan redha segala ketentuan Tuhan kerana segalanya ada hikmah disebalik kejadian.

dan juga menghargai kasih sayang dari insan insan yang istimewa dalam hidup dan menjaga kasih dan sayang ini sebaiknya kerana Allah.

insyaallah. terima kasih Allah ;)

mama oh mama

everybody update their fb status regarding *mother day*. syukran.. we still have one that love and care us more than what we can give back.

alhamdulillah, i spent time with mom for a while though everybody was busy and i am having problem to have leave to see mom. but, with Allah will. we still met.

for me; today is mother day but perhaps i wont leave father alone so make it as parents day which i celebrated them for sacrifice a lot in their life and their time to raise us. and i thank Allah for giving health for my both parents. my prayer always with them.

i appreciate them *mama n abah*. so much! been in geriatric ward, seeing a lot of elderly abondant by their children make my heart sober.

but, they the elderly never let the sorrow haunt them but they pray onr day their children would come and give them a kiss though they know they wont.

hurm..

just give a minute and pray for our both parents.

pray for them till jannah. ameen

Our Mojo

everybody looking up for a calm and striving to finish the assignment. despite the continuously report, minutes for each meeting, the lazy hand to work on board and the losing motivation, yet we still have a responsible to be success and 'amanat' from lovely both parents who always pray for our study. still figure out: what make us lost the mojo, perhaps we just forgot that time flies so fast and the semester come to the end. soon, final was around.

wake up friends,

we in the battle now, fight the mushy mood, strengthen the spirit, and protect with struggle. kick out all the manjalitis symptoms, lazy day syndrome and dreaming fever. lets back to the track.

lets pray together that we will gain our success and make our friendship strong and pull out the 'hasad dengki', and 'cemburu' away.

May He with us all.

Again; lets keep faith company till end of our successful ;)

p/s: remind one another so that each of us wont miss behind. walk along as we walk to 'Jannah'. Insyaallah,

Good Luck everyone. hope, this will help you to get your mojo back. 

:-|

saya bukan alim

warn~> this is long entry

definitely i'm taking pause for each sentences i wrote, and keep my finger on the backspace key for this post. refer to the title on top, you may wonder what am trying to convey yet i am the one doubt to write this entry. afraid to get false perception from readers who just keep eyes on tittle without completely finish their reading.

every person i met, they left judgement about me. well, i am not a mind reader, neither a witch to understand what thought they made.
i am ordinary! i make flaws. i drop sometimes. i cried for sad. i beg to Him.

sometimes, there is a thing pop out from my head on how they judge me. afraid that they could give bad perception though i am hardly present myself at best! they could see me from what i acted, from what i said, they could judge from my appearance, they could judge in any ways even i shut my mouth.. people' brain always work on what they observed and the evaluation make thing hard for me as the eyes seem pasted to my face.

i wrote a lot in my blog. keep changing the language, the mood, the issue, the emotional, the response, sometimes tested to leap in faith, you alert if you are the follower. *dont force you to be*.

refresh; in the beginning of develop this blog. very new to understand to manage the blog.exciting write about self, interest, moment and upload pictures.. but suddenly, realised that where should this blog go. is it to *show off*, is it to let people see how your life is.. *kehidupan yang pasang dan surut* or let your pictures been seen to criticise while the pictures show the way that shouldnt be it way. well it depends on how you think of it. sometimes this is the way how feeling play around. worries!

doesnt matter!

it is okay to write. but bare in mind, never let excitement take place till you forget your direction. i learnt! i did blogwalking. drop by here and there, read a lot, sometimes influence myself to be like their language, copy some of their ways and many more. *that was long time ago*

then, i found one page from this blogwalking routine. tell you that i amaze her for having a wonderful page. attractive, she did well in her blog..... i change a lot ever since i read her page.

identity? personality? language? post?

nope!

it is the way how she manage her page. never let anger control the language, nevet put *riak* for her luck, never blame for any mistakes, never claimed she is the best but sharing, attitude, adab, sopan, culture that amaze me toward her. she was the best behind the sarcastic in her words.

friends, the best follower could see my changes i made from the beginning till present.

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after almost three years own this page, changing here and there, improving the language and action;

one asked me. i wrote about faith and redha. prayer and etc.. but, sudden question spit from the mouth. do you wanna be an ustazah?you like to speak about prayer but why you never wear *tudung labuh*.

#silent# i wonder myself for have
such wear tudung labuh cover by purdah. put jubah everyday in life. is it what she meant? again i wonder.

mute# in the midst of finishing this post. finally, i have my answer.

honest, i am not alim but doesnt mean alim should wear those labuh hijab, those jubah and purdah, but!
alim to my side, to cover all *aurat*, perform solat, fasting in ramadhan, recite the Quran, meninggalkan laranganNya; too many that we should obey to Him..and most important is #niat..

again! i am not alim but i still His slave who always obey to what He had state. ibadah is what He count on but not the *tudung labuh* that you had mention.

i am not denied *tudung labuh*. its credit for you if you wearing *tudung labuh*. but how if you wearing those *tudung labuh*, purdah and jubah but you never perform solat, your niat was terpesong, your cemburu and dengki haunt you. *not to point anyone*.

i dont debate!

anyway, good to remind me! my pleasure for your reminder.



Allah itu ada bukan hanya untuk orang alim. Allah juga ada bersama hamba-Nya yang berdosa - dan memohon keampunan-Nya.

nobody perfect, make mistake is flaws but turn back to Him and ask for taubat is the perfect way rather than remaining sins. wallahualam...

not forgotten

happy birthday u.serious wanna wish u the night we went out...*its your birthday tomorrow* something stop me from doing so..anyway my prayer always with u...

happy birth anniversary u.

my sayang sayang

just because this is the best shoot we had made..so i share this beautiful picture of my sayang sayang.

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spit it out

i want to cry

dont worry, i able to hold my tears now. alhamdulillah i finally cope with the mess. thanks housemates for listen to my grumble.

i supposely not to be this bad and complaint on how i felt especially to this public *refer to blog* but the best place i can express is here. i write from my heart. but, i warn myself to control the emotion and words during this update.

sigh* He gave me another rough day. back to work thing. it is totally make me upset with the situation right now. got myself so busy with work additional with cover partner who on medical leave. seriously, i drown with these. exhausted, stress and bundle of work wait to finish.

the not understanding current partner in sharing kind of feeling and not really so to give hand while myself are really not keen to ask favor due not to trouble her. how bad choices to make. again i am keeping it though sometimes the clue play around her. shouldnt blame her much actually but keep afford much better.huuu dont know where is better actually.... blurrrr

or is it my manjalitis syndrome because never meet this situation before. emmm.... * tak tau nak cakap ape*

well, spoke to housemates just now. calm and relieved. they very well understood and gave me a lot of support and telling that whatever happen was misscommunication from each other. honestly, nobody to blame. it just something to express and cheer up back to my heart.

em..just pray him to make the flow smooth and make thing goes well... insyaallah ;)

poem

Ya Allah Aku rindukannya keranaMu Ya Allah , Jauhkanlah daku dari perkara yang membuatkan aku lupa kepadaMu . Aku semakin mengerti, ‘JARAK’ ini bukan untuk menghukumku..tetapi ‘JARAK’ ini untuk MENJAGA aku dan dia..

✿~ Dengan ‘JARAK’ ini aku dan dia berjanji untuk BERUBAH menjadi yang lebih baik..
✿~ Dengan JARAK ini aku dan dia berjanji untuk MEMPERBAIKI cinta kepada Ilahi..
✿~ Dengan jarak ini aku dan dia berjanji untuk MENCINTAI Pencipta kami lebih dari segalanya..
✿~ Dengan JARAK ini aku dan dia berjanji untuk MENDALAMI Islam hingga ke akar umbi..
✿~ Dan Dengan JARAK ini jua aku dan dia yakin andai tiba saatnya nanti, aku dan dia akan LEBIH BERSEDIA untuk melayari semua ini dengan jalan yang diredhai...

given by my sayang tikah in whatsapp.

comolot habis

jangan terkejut dengan tajuk di atas... ok bukan comolot dengan orang ea tp dengan the special dummy for this whole day.

wonder why?

i'm attending CPR course. wallaa super perfect la.. this is not my first time participate and been examined for this course. i had experienced once during college and got pass for my exam. but tomorrow i feel a bit nervous since left school for quite long.

besides, the injured hand wont be good for me to present my cpr tomorrow. huh hope i could handle the pain. the continuous pain from excessive used of holding phone to the caused of badminton injury and the non stop writing on report again repeating excessive used of phone and now cpr practising untill lebam. very bad hah!

just pretending that i'm ok and got a lot of power in hand to keep the dummy survive from death while it is actually a death dummy.errr

thing that make me so worry at this moment is theory exam since i am not a very rajin to hafal all the words in book especially when yawn keep haunting me. grrrrrrr

just wish best of luck for me and i could really handle the nerves in the crowd tomorrow ;)

cutting your heart into pieces

think that quite long i have not updating the blog. sorry for the hectic day. bond to work and fatigue was terrible. back from work, clean self, prayer follow time for asar, magrib and isyak then influenced by mood of sleepy.. lush and warm on bed and suddenly realized that i woke up in the morning. how bad i felt when time flies so wasted. emmm that is how i went through those days...

and He warn me by headache and fever. i heal myself with bundle of pills and sleep.. bad bad bad..but behind, the never ending sujud and doa for my health..

speak about work, i dont feel good staying here after about a year in this place... not to say work, but to be honest i dont feel happy with the environment which i could say the people around.. good to mingle among them but not too happy the 'cakap cakap belakang'. that horrible!

well, especially working with people ages older than us. the different thought, different way and communication. easier way to say *busy body and berlagak*. sigh!

em... if i could steal their heart and clean it. huh!

just pray Him to let the perasaan jahat pergi jauh jauh.... may He guide them...ameen

respect is the one that i need..respect in between whenever you are.. face to face or in behind.. speak bad thing at the back is not wise untill i found out from others. sad!

hoping for a change!

hilang

dont bother the title!
i am better now. a better spirit, a better to be better! apa yang mengarut nie. anyway, alhamdulillah. i had been throught those terrible weeks well.

thank to my sayang tikah and kak dhiah for being concern and be the people behind my drop! again Allah is my strength and prayer from abah n mama was my medicine.

losing! it is pain. it is!

hurmmmm... lets forget the bitter harder. back to reality and keep move on.

your silent drive me crazy!

but i always pray for your safety cos Allah said do never hate people but gift them doa. insyaallah i keep my routine every my solat.

p/s myself: cinta Allah adalah cinta yang terindah yang tidak mungkin melukai dan mengkhianati. cinta Allah cinta abadi! ameen

the truth

i dont lie my feeling towards you love!
whatever we had spent; stories, laugh, jokes. fill in head
whatever jerk, annoyed or hated i made; forgive me

no matter how much love inside me, if He said you not the one that meant to me, means there is no chance no matter hard i catch all.

here,

my heart and my soul.
pray for a better life each of us.
the step we move we put it better.
the picture of yours; i return with smile.

perhaps; there is one should take back step so that everybody got a peace in heart though tears companied all the night.

but,

believe that Allah always keep strengthen the faith as life goes along with Him.

hard with another dissappoinment, but anyway i survive.

sincere,
LOVE

sorrow behind the smile

How beautiful life to be upset for the dissappointment and regrets while it actually hiding thousand of bliss that we never try to figure.

i believe everyone had the sorrow not even once in a lifetime.but it is not what i pointed here today *how much sorrow you face*. but it just to share you a very typical feeling that most of us do have it yet difficult to express.. perhaps tak nak susah kan sesapa, malu nak berkongsi, or its better to simpan dalam hati *kind of mine*.

i had a friend which i heart her so much. i know her since college but getting closer when we became room mate after i am working. she was very nice, listen to whatever jokes i made, remind me to do my solat, guide me whenever mistakes i made, help me with my flaws.. all are here... she was very very good friend!

but, the only thing i missed about her is her life *refer to the family* well, she never tell us her stories, never share us the same excitement when we back to hometome, never bebel bebel about being nag by mother, not sharing any of wonderful time spend with lovely and beautiful anugerah.. i had once in head to ask her but before my intention goes my friend had told me how sad her stories was...

i think its better to keep between us here.. and i feel sorry to her for this lost and at the same time i feel syukur *thank* Him for let me stay with the gift He gaves me *my family*

i even had this kind of feeling, kenapa dia nie kedekut sangat tak nak cerita pasal family dia, berlagak kot.... subhanallah..how bad i am! then, after all i know that she was keeping something which was her  sorrow. sorrow behind her smile...

but, i respect her for keeping life well and better though it is hurt to move on without people we love... how i appreciate them *my parents* so much.... this is how He test her... dugaan yang amat besar bagi hamba yang manja seperti aku dan die mampu menghadapinya sebaik baiknya.....

i learnt! may Allah with them *abah n mama*.... ameen

and may Allah strengthen her faith in any dugaan yang di uji....

those who still have both parents please do love them till you lose them you never know how regrets yourself for not sacrifice for them like they did when you was a child. not wealth they beg you but love what they want you to shower...

sincere:
DiebA

mute

sorry for being silent. think that i might be in long mute...will update more if there any time or this is the last update...shhuhhhh i hope not...

good night :)

again..i repeat!

Sometimes when come to gila gila punya otak..i started to post the annoying status on my facebook. Yet it never same like you read in previous entry... Its annoying but its not to be hated...

Well, i make this entry short and clear so that you wont get yourself bother to my post as i am very good in writing a long entry since mengarut mengarut is one of my best..err

I point here. People misunderstood me when i put 'my sayang sayang'..i repeat *my sayang sayang*.. It wasn't a guy, a man, or anything related to the sex of male... Let me tell you again that *my sayang sayang was my best girl friends that i trust most and the person that i could share anything about myself...

Hope this will stop you for making a judgement. The person i love is only one instead of family and i called him as my love.

Don't need to describe much about love...as you might not want to hear much from me... Hope this entry satisfy you......

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Learnt and change

I know most of us had our social page or dalam erti kata mudah facebook, twitter, my space, friendster, and etc..well think that much more than what i had listed but there are the only page i own. Friends here and there..added and increase, exciting knowing people though we have no idea who are those people we approved to list..

After 3 years own those pages, i could say there are pro and cons.. I bet you guys out there agree with me.. When my mother advised me to be very careful with these pages i was the one said its nothing to be worried but then after quite long hold the words i realized that mother was right... Not to say that i have been cheated or what, it just wasting a lot of time and even money...

Tell me if these wrong? I myself experienced those. Cheated? Dont say it never happen..it is all the time and we ever heard about it.. Didn't you? Well nothing to debate here but just telling you what i had faced and heard so that we could remind each other...inshaallah..

I dont close my page...i still actively using my pages though i am the one here merungut sana sini... Well this is what i want to share with you that how much difficult myself to stop being addicted to these...

Instead of wasting or whatever about being addicted to social pages there is one thing annoyed me from people i have read their status. Emm dont tell me you never felt the same like i feel... Its crazy sometimes when i have to annoy my friend for what they have stated on their page..tell you this is bad...

So, i also being so overacted long time ago...expressed the anger, mushy around about heart feeling, seek for attention, dreaming alone...well that is what when excitement take place without think much and wise...and at the end you feel ashamed cos you know what? Friend listed in your page was your parents, teachers, friends and relatives.. What if the judge went wrong from what you try to convey... Please to myself and i  have changed..and you?tepuk dada tanya minda...

Too much bebel.. Please dont mind it, the first thing you will view when there is a new friend request was the picture... Shook me if you dont? But i am... Its not to tell you that i am choosing the face but i chose to recognize the person in the first place and tell you i only approve my friend. Before i miss this... Please behave and jaga sopan dan santun.. Put your picture as priceless and put it as high as no one can be afford to see those... Got me? Kata yang agak kasar..janganlah berposing posing maut dan jagalah adap bergambar...errr ada ke adab bergambar... Sesungguhnya seseorang manusia yang berperasaan malu dan imannya menguasai segala nafsu maka dia antara orang orang yang sentiasa memelihara kesuciaan dan keharmonian diri...

One friend told me this...seorang wanita yang baik tidak perlulah menunjuk nunjukkan dirinya kepada orang lain kerana kebaikannya melalui kata kata adalah kecantikan yang abadi... I take his words and he is the one keep his words well...

Before i end, people said i am not alim but why i wrote those words...  May He guide them. Ameen

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run and miss step

Countless. Most of my post describe how much busy i am in my day since working here..refer to the hospital...yes! I am...sometimes it ever  crossed to mind to quit and look out for another but think back of hope and pray...i should say i must thank Him for giving me a better life based on work, friends and opportunity and mostly is getting closed to Him all the time....

Hurm.. Never look back to the past as my sayang fara ever told me..never turn back cos past was history and let present be the best and guidance for future... And this remind me to her as we go far from one another. She was married.. Will be a mother soon and i never blame her for the miss but i understood that the change came from the status we hold now.. But one think i learnt the prayer will always with us..

Two weeks back i am running here and there. Completed all the responsible i hold.. The moment i suffer from this time, mom and dad was the person who supported me a lot..they sacrificed all their time and love for make averything went perfect. Behind the lethargy, anxious, hopes, and worries they gave me their best prayer.. Oh this is how much i heart them.. What on earth you if you forget to syukur? Having parents around, love and sacrifice for your best compared to others who walk alone and live in ignorance... How glad myself to be bless by Him with giving me this beautiful anugerah *family*..

Despite having good time, my heart never stop worry of the unwell father. My prayer always to him... Get a good health and a better faith.. I keep pray for them in every of my doa.. Ameen.

Yet, a few things need to get prepare... Back to school..alhamdulillah passing the first semester and a few weeks more two enter a new semester.. The wishes are getting better result, more effort and more rajin.. Err refer to previous experience....hehe

Last..today having interview to move one step to be permanent...er hope everything goes well... Well, nothing much pressure just keep move on and more effort..inshaallah... He with me...

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6 months

Last August 2011 when i received a called from a lady from HR. I was panic and that time my mind started running out. I'm not ready for a change, i don't want to move, i'm afraid to be in the place where the rumours said about stress and tough. It worried me all the time till the day i came for my first day in work. The moment that i hate was introducing myself in front of crowd. Seriously, the nerves bite my body... Err....

Now, after 6 months working plus after renew my contract, i'm getting to love this job. It is too perfect to leave... :( despite the never ending report, the non stop incoming new admission, the fussy elderly which like to be pampered and sometimes hate to be closed with and the arrogant face by the tittle of dato or tan sri they hold..and ect... But there are still a sweet moment i shall keep and need to be remember..

I love to see their smile, i love when they laughed for my jokes though they are in pain, i love when they start their words by reminding one another about life, promise, advice, recipe, experience and many other things. Once we tight the bond we shared a lot more, especially when tears drop this really taught my soul to be stronger cos in my eyes they are more painful than what i felt...

One man came for assessment and i was impressed by his personality, the neat man, the polite language, the very friendly with smile, the perfect people who companied him here and there.. We had a long conversation.. He was amazing in his life.. He was a successful man.. I said to him.. 'it is so perfect and you the lucky man'. He replied me, with his eyes in me.. Yes i am lucky but i only the old man. 

These moment was adorable, instead of my responsible on work, it gave me lesson in each day i stayed.. True! Today i share my happiness and tomorrow my prayer followed them in the other world. MAY HE WITH THEM...

Today, tomorrow and day after tomorrow my prayer always with them.. I'm doing with all my heart, jujur dan ikhlas kerana Allah. Ameen.. Dan semoga segala yang aku berikan di terimaNya... Insyaallah....

Being in geriatric is not easy as you think..but based on niat and honest.. There is nothing stop you! But remember geri is the people you have to appreciate most..

Sincere,

DIEBA

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disable doesn't mean unable

If we only have a faith in Him, we will enjoy life to the fullest despite all the worries we have to face each day.

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bitter

Next time i meet you, i promise you i won't hurt you so badly... Forget this bitter harder please for my forgiveness... Resque me from my misery..... :( tell you this is bad!

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Those days

almost a year i left Sabah days... how fast time flies but the memories of time and the nostalgia in Sabah still stand in my mind. how i miss all those days.. it is not the only day, but i miss people i knew for my stayed. I miss them.

sometimes, i ever wonder why those time meant to me instead for the other places i ever stay. the assumption plays around but it never satisfied me cos i still look for the answer. i haven't found once. but my heart touched by couple of things that i hold tight till now. may He keep strengthen my faith and patience. ameen~

i wanna come back to those places i ever reached if any rezeki i have. i love being in those time. i wanna meet those people who gave a lot meant, people who actually gave me silence support from their acted, motivation, and prayer. how i appreciate myself for the opportunities from Him for being in those days and got a lot of hikmah from these travel.

insyaallah, if the luck still in my side.. i'll be back and i'll make sure the next time i reach the place, i'll make it better from last time.... again, insyaallah...

My acute

recently i struggle with emotion, i fight with doubt, i blame my flaws and i reaching my hopeless... 

poor motivation' perkataan yang lebih sesuai untuk diterangkan...'

my bad. sigh....

today, i treated one of my patient who previously was so depress, crying over his life 'leave by children because of the disabilities', hopeless about being alive, give up on trying, and most missing his family. but... just now, he was smiling, he was teasing people, he making a joke, he don't cried as he did last time in every session, he never missed the smile in a seconds, he stronger than what he was before, he was talking so much...he is getting better and he was like getting a miracle for presenting himself today compared to what i have seen him before..
Impressive!

I have been told by soul; he is only an old man who is going to lose some of his and i was a young lady who are stronger than him and have everything that i able to get. 

but... 

my heart weak, 

i am hopeless in a while just because of the unmotivated mood.

Sesungguhnya Allah menguji dia lebih daripada ape yang aku diuji... subhanallah....

i lost my syukur... sudden

today, when i saw him... istiqamah, doa, syukur dan redha are overwhelming...
my spirit go up high!
i have my spunk...
i beat them up 'unmotivated, sober and anxious'

```exhale..... i'm awake!

sometimes, there is a time when we feel a little under the weather and sometimes we feel like the heart skip a beat..and sometimes there is a sorrow and disappointment over the head.. but, He heals with people around, the scenario surroundings and sometimes He opens our heart... He makes our eyes clear with wisdom and hikmah.... despite the nikmat yang diberikan He choose us among the others for the hidayah....

because we are the umat 'slave' who always put Him in heart, soul and life in any situation we are facing. wallahualam... may what i thought was right... insyaallah...ameen...

This is our story

It was right that friendship never met the ending, it was long lasting.. It is true that 'friend forever' can be mean. last time in my holiday back in my hometown, my best friend asked me to meet up since a long time we been silent from a long chat after the raya and everybody was busy with our own matter. i know this is a very such a lousy friendship but tell you what, we never stop asking the news from each other instead we still pray for one another.

thing that make me a lil down here, we getting to a small group.. sob2.. from about 8 of us go down to 5 left. this 5 of us the only people who take note about each other and still mingle and share a few stories together and still laugh at the same joke and drink at the same table and keep the same secret. yes, time make people go change.. that is how time flies.. everything much different and we breaking apart from each other. life, growing up process, moving to one step relationship: these all make everything no same not like a few years back when we in school. i admit; i miss the old time back in school where we were in group. Oh!!!

i don't really want to point over this complaint about the breaking part of our group, or otherwise i will started to cry and bring back the memories of last time... okay... 'stop drama and lets go to the point' ~ lebih baik cerita yang best2 jela....

there was no different over our physically changes.. we still same, err maybe some of us gain weight and maybe some look a lil thin... nak refer kepada diri sendiri la tue... (perkara penting when meet up friends) true! i bet you guys had same like me...  but there is a big topic that really really change among us that we are very rare to discuss and never drag it till the ending. i totally gone insane with this topic when my friend asked me this! and he is repeated the same question over and over till i satisfied him with a good answer....

i understand why this come out from his mouth.. cos we already 24'.. we grown older? that is why this topic is suit for us...  is about getting married.. trust me! you not gonna have any ideas to reply back since you really zero about the planning of getting married! err and till the end of conversation we met the same opinion. we also don't know when we going to end the single status...erhhhh! Allah knows better than us...

Hurmm that is all the topic had been discuss on out met... huh.. we are grown up.. this fast from the kids to this big.... how wonderful life isn't it? well, nothing much besides discussing about career development, tentang kawan itu kawan ini, sape dah kawen sape belum, joke about earn money and laugh about tease people...well much discussing about getting married.... :|

i miss this all time being with friends.. true! the school time was the memorable you never get in this world! cos friend is forever! May He bless us... ameen

Cinta dan Benci

bagaimana cara membuatmu bahagia
nyaris ku menyerah jalani semua
tlah berbagai kata ku ungkap percuma
agar kau percaya cintaku berharga

tak kuat ku menahanmu, mempertahankan cintaku
namun kau begitu saja, tak pernah merindu

sungguh aku tak bisa, sampai kapanpun tak bisa
membenci dirimu, sesungguhnya aku tak mampu
sulit untuk ku bisa, sangat sulit ku tak bisa
memisahkan segala cinta dan benci yang ku rasa

apa kau mengerti ku sedih sendiri
tanpa ada kamu ku merasa sepi

tlah lama ku menantimu, diam sendiri menunggu
setengah hati mencinta, ku sakit karenamu

woo ooo ku sakit karenamu

sungguh aku tak bisa, sampai kapanpun tak bisa
membenci dirimu, sesungguhnya aku tak mampu
sulit untuk ku bisa, sangat sulit ku tak bisa
memisahkan segala cinta dan benci

sungguh aku tak bisa membenci dirimu
sesungguhnya aku tak mampu
sungguh aku tak bisa, sampai kapanpun tak bisa
memisahkan segala cinta dan benci ooo
cinta dan benci ooo yang ku rasa

-Geisha-

Kawan baru

hee... i got new friend.. err err blum lagi.. still asking to be friend with her.. the approval still pending! the other blogger.. at this time, its kind of different cos she is sharing me same feel but not like the rest of my friends... huu

don't worry friends, you still in my heart... 'angkat tangan dua2.. PROMISE"

so Nur Najihah... can we be friend? err... bleh la bleh la... please.... 'bajet dia dengarla kan' heee.....

anyway, selamat berkawan :) 'senyum mengharap'.....................

mute

writing.. backspace... writing again... backspace!

i lost my mojo :(

quotes

"Let Allah be the ruler over your hearts, not the duniya (world)" 


When the world pushes you to your knees, You are in the perfect position to pray. 

Better to avoid the person altogether than to try to heal from the damage it causes. 

Reflect on the work of art and you mat attain to the artist. 


The only lasting beauty is the beauty of the heart. 

Do not ask, "Where is God?" 
Rather ask, "Where am I?" 

Be with Allah. 
You will find Allah with you.

Read more: http://www.forumpakistan.com/islamic-quotes-t6729.html#ixzz1lEBfQeK5

"If Allah brings you to it,He will bring you through it" Twakkul"Make du'a, do your best, And leave the rest to Allah" Be yourself beautiful,and you will find the world full of beauty" "Whoever follows patience, success will follow him" "A friend cannot considered a friend until he is tested in three occasions: In time of need,behind your back, and after your death": -Ali ibn Talib (radiALLAH anhu) "Love all, with sincere love and concern" "Seven days without prayers make one weak"

Read more: http://www.forumpakistan.com/islamic-quotes-t6729.html#ixzz1lECC7XCo

Anugerah

love is subjective! it can be to anything, anyone and sometimes it can be beyond of mind. indeed, just look back how many stories about love which we can conclude as romance, lovely, memorable, nostalgic or i would include as tragic. some find the ending well, some met the trouble, some faced regrets and some got a failure. And I specifically refer to human love at this time. 'sejak topik nie hebat dibualkan antara sahabat-sahabat'.

i spoke to a few friends who told me their love story and some of them asked for the opinion and advice. i could give them some but i still doubt myself for giving them the real and clear explanation since i am not really a doctor love, or i can say that i am not good in handling this kind of love matter. don't get me wrong by judging me for ignoring your complaint but take it as my flaws cos i really not so perfect in this field! but I still can try to be a motivator whenever you need me to listen to yours.

Here, when someone knows love, will they understand what this love for? what this love meant? have you ever asked yourself? beep .....~~speak to your heart~~ you know better than what people might say!

its a gift! its Him who gave this gift for every of His slaves. but;

first; we misused this feeling.

second; we forgot the purpose of this gift.

third; we blind for every happy moment we had.

.....; we strayed from niat 'nawaitu'

....; we almost far from love but play in 'nafsu' (lust)

....; we lost the love but we won the stain.

don't look others but refer to own self what have we reach in this love. being capable with everything without a limitation and based on hakikat semakin kita hampir pada cinta, semakin kita lupa anugerah dari Allah. when lust take place the niat sink. making a mistake is not the end of everything but turn back with taubat and doa and make returning to Him is a best way!

don't think of romeo and juliet, don't think of uda dan dara. they were from a different kind of love which is a   role play for some entertainment and that was a typical love story to make people understood the worldly love it is!

back to basic; remember when we in primary school, ustazah selalu cerita tentang kisah-kisah nabi. make a our love as cinta Nabi Muhammad kepada Siti Khodijah.

this is what He want us to appreciate His anugerah. everybody deserves this anugerah and He never lock any of His slaves' heart from putting it inside but it is us who put it high in a wrong place. 

those failed find love there is no regrets but istiqamah cos He said 'I have a better plan' and He want to give a perfect love perhaps. kerana Dia telah menjadikan setiap dari kita berpasang-pasangan. don't blame Him but closed to Him. 

but, 

take this as renungan; 

mungkin kita lupa untuk melakukan suruhanNya dan tidak meninggalkan laranganNya.

Mungkin kita sentiasa jauh pada petunjuk dan hidayahNya

or,

maybe we never love Him but we still beg for His anugerah! nauzubillah

maybe! maybe! maybe! -bertanya pada diri sendiri, how many amal ibadah had we done sepanjang kita hidup. how many syukur kita pohon. its all in your head!

Love is a gift. Love is priceless! Love is indah! Love is perfect!

so, follow His way and you will find the true love. Love of iman and taqwa, love of redha and syukur, love of ikhlas (sincere).

find Him, you will find love... insyaallah

sincere,

dieba

Pray

He is the Greatest!

He is the Greatest!

He is the Greatest!

yesterday i visited one of my old friend in HKL. she was admitted due to stroke and was unconscious since 2 weeks ago. the moment i heard about the news, i'm totally deny it from my heart. how come the active lady with the young age got sick on that way! I deny it though i understood! but soon after taking a breath and listen to the explanation from friends, this is His plan! a fate ~~~ sober ~~

i stared through her face, she was struggle with her life and i cry in heart. This is how He test her, this is how she have been through, this is how i learnt: no matter how old you are, no matter how strong you in building your muscles, no matter what status you have, no matter. no matter!

 He is Almighty, He is the Greatest!

 Subhanallah.

i pray her for her health and her safe!

May Allah with her. ameen

Allahu YarA'kum

دمتم في رعاية الله وحفظه (May you forever be under God's care and protection) "dumtum fii ri3aayatillaahi wa HifDHih"

The aura

truth! 

sometimes this operational mind system need to be rest from any exceed input.

I admit, this period make me blur due to time constrain and mentally tired..

so that, there is no post for a while until  mind state stable and the aura of fingers to be running come back :)

Deeds

“Winning is a habit. Watch your thoughts, they become your beliefs. Watch your beliefs, they become your words. Watch your words, they become your actions. Watch your actions, they become your habits. Watch your habits, they become your character.”

never less

one time i stared at my screen there was nothing change; the unread emails. wasn't me been forgotten nor busy also to ignore; however it is you who stop sending me a single word. or could i say the failure of connecting the line in the blue ocean. 'sedapkan hati'

meanwhile, this thought brought to worries and sad. subhanallah. seems news had take place my thought over you; the unsafe day you have been through in your sailor and the unhealthy yours in your last messages.. naudzubillah 'may Allah with you'. 

sometimes in this tears i pray you for more pink in health,

I pray to Him

to keep our fate 'jodoh' never last till He set us to be free 'mati'

i pray Him to preserve our 'iman' (faith) so we won't go astray and obey to what rules He stated, put the evil 'syaiton' as a musuh yang di keji away from making us go 'maksiat' and 'sumbang mahram' (vice and incest) and not between of us; not even in a seconds of our steps.

I pray Him

if you're the one He choose for me in the first place; keep you stay and i lock it good till the day you said

AKU TERIMA NIKAHNYA,

but you must face Him,

put Him in the first place before me,

and you must face my abah...'full stop'

I pray Him,

 never make this love last,

insyaAllah.   

exam

yet another 2 papers to go before end the 1st semester. despite the never ending study, the never enough sleep, the over consumption of supper and caffeine, the agony of realizing the 2 chapters you read had only 1 question in paper, the spot question you stress out haven't appear like you wish. errhh; there are still a lot of things i love about exam.

here is my first semester for this first year;

my classmate, my junior, my super duper senior and now we together in the same class

my room mate which we always exchage ideas and argue..grr

the last minute study..uhuk uhuk

i will miss the moment when we were together instead; move one step to another life with family :(

and exams are where friends get together

supporting one another

and building a stronger ukhwah fillah

insyaAllah

and a whole lot more gained.

praying the past exams for us had been nothing more than help us strengthen our

IMAN & AMAL

insyaAllah

p/s: though we were sometimes give up and frustrated on the weakness and losing energy during this studying period but we believe in 'hikmah' and 'janji' (promise) Him kepada hambaNya yang berusaha dan 'bertawakal'. we gain the strength from our longest smile and holding hands.. ameen