bismillah

second paper done today!
quite hard 'return to work' which i could say interesting subject but need a lot of reading method to understand. huh....

two days in row, tomorrow will be third paper to sit. seriously mental was tired and nerves never stop.

every time final exam came the situation was same. the noise, nervous, the chaos was everywhere. you can look how struggle people to chase time before enter the exam hall and keep finishing all the chapters.

but

i was seeing this today while waiting to enter exam hall. a group of man 'adik-adik' was seating on floor all of them and 'khusyuk' with the notes on their hand and selected every pages of the paper to not missed any chapter before enter exam hall. after ten minutes my eyes come to them and seeing they was raise hand and recite for doa. one man was recite doa while the rest was 'amin' for the prayer.... how wonderful they are....

i dont say i am not making doa. it just they were so unique that reciting it together with khusyuk and tawakal.

that amazed me!

before i end, prayer was a weapon to everything you have. i bet you its true! thanks Him for giving us an easier way for help! wallahualam ;)

random thought

in the midst of my study and listening to Melly Goeslow's song *butterfly* sejak popular dalam cerita Dejavu Kota Kinabalu terus addicted and haunt my ears. seriously the song was good.. i love the melody.

dejavu!

yes i miss sabah days especially when i watch the movie. it was remaining me to the day that i had been through in sabah. i miss those days.

my wish, i wanna come back to those places i had visit but time was so limit. work and study stop me from doing so. in sya Allah, if there is a day that Allah give me, i will!

exam! nervous. definitely toward all of us. the first paper i seat today syukur, He gave me a better day, good health, calm and thousand of ideas compare to last exam where my health was very bad! syukur again.....

family, miss them a lot! mom and dad prayer goes along with me and my pray to Him will never stop till i go. in sya Allah....

hati. alhamdulillah...hati semakin tenang dan mampu untuk meneruskan kehidupan baru. pray him a good life with one that he choose and pray Allah to give me my mr right. never look back to past but keep move on and chase His love more and more. sober!yes i am but He cure me with His plan like mom ever told me ' Tuhan tue dah susun elok dah' perhaps He has better plan for me which may safe me from go worse... wallahualam ;)

percaya pada qada and qadar. yes i believe! pray and doa are weapon to fight all the troubles. that i am sure!

wish me luck for my final ;) syukran.

i still alive

sorry for the long mute.

i'm taking time to write this entry since work and assignment was my best buddies at the moment plus my unhealthy status. it was fever on and off, sore throat that make my night scary and flu for day by day make me weak. well the weather now seem very bad hah. medicine and rest seem helpful but again fall sick when the non stop work had to be done every day.

no worries! i'm getting better.

actually i had a lot of stories to share here but time was so limit for me to update but i promise when semester break and my work getting smooth i will again.

i miss writing here.

tell you i really miss my blog update!

hey i think i better off and get my lunch first... i 'll update soon after my final done ;)