Sadness

Dear blog,

Wooot, woooooooooot!

I'm back to the track, after some time. Throws me confetti and blows me a vuvuzela, anyone?Okay. Stop being dramatic.I've been TRD. Hell, it is such a long period of my off-blogging. Eh eh, correction. just few days.... Hahahaha!I swear I've been that “pretty busy”. I was married to works and now we’re getting divorced, but just for a while. -.-"

And, I’ve been that “pretty lazy” too. I’m not in the mood to type anything and I was just unmotivated to blog though there were loads of the comings and goings around me for the past week that I could share here but I am just lazy to do such. Hmm I guess I lost my blogging mojo or whatever you call it -.-"

Plus,added with the bad bad day ever in my life...Seem like everything come all over and put me in down situation aka depression.....First i just got news that my lovely dear kak dhiah will moving out soon from the house...Its really make feel so sad n i know later i'll be so lone...huhuhuhuhhu...I don't know what i feel right now but for this moment i can say that its really worried me....She like my ears to heard any of my tease my story n all the lie....making joke with her is the thing that i couldn't forget it so fun even though deep inside her its annoyed but she really cool.....she's the one who be my shoulder to cry on, lend me her time,keeping me cheers, advising me every day reminding me to 'solat', telling me what is right and never say you cannot do this and that....She's precious!!!!!n i'm crying now remembering all this.....I know this is good chance for her future..soon or later she will moving to new phase but it just not now...whatever it is i still pray for her goodness and i will not forget her kindness...It just the thing that we really can make it together....we still not travel together, remember our holiday and 'rayap' plan its still not work n it still stuck with the work~~~~~so i just let the time goes in our life...huh!!!!if i ever turn the time back....

Sabah~~~~

really out of this heart...Really hate when knowing that i will be posting to Sabah...huhuhuhu..it so far....i don't wanna go!!!!!!!But i know there is nothing that i could change...this is work, whether you like it or not you still need to do that,,,leaving my bed, my pillow, my friend, my heart, my lovely lovely family my day out, my ronggeng n rayap, the series, movie date, shopping date, my happiness, my story, my joke, the fun...omg!!!!!its really hard meh......i just still not ready...

there is still in my mind and it keep play in n its really worried me n feel so anxious....how i'm going to sabah...being alone without anyone sending me...huuhuhu..i know my parents is working and they really really busy and i was reminded by mom to be careful its mean i need to be independent!!!!!!huhuhuhuhuhu...i never be alone from them....and i hate that...i just want my mom to come along~~~~~n miss her now!!!!!i pray to God to let everything fine and i have my peaceful and happiness there......amin~~~~~

Hope...

what do you feel when someone give you hope n he break it!!!!!hurm if you don't wanna just say it n don't need to sweet talk......it just hurting~~~~~~~~~~~~~n i hate that!!!!!

i was wonder all the words form you boy cos you keep repeating the same as before and its so bored!!!!!

Omg!!!its 10.10am i GTG!!!!!!there is working date waiting here...n i might be smack by kak wani nanti..... oh yah.....verry awesome rite~~~~~10.10am and 20102010~~~~~~~~~~~

i lev this!!!!!