An appreciation

When I was waiting for train to come there was something pop out from my head that remind me about what had just happened before I left 'Hospital'.

Y: la dieba kenapa ko sekejap sangat?
Me: nak wat cam ne puan. saya kene kerja tempat lain.
Y: ko tak payahla pegi mane mane, stay sini je.
Me: *smile*
Y: aku suka ko duk sini. tak payah pegi tempat lain. suh orang lain je...
Me: *smile* takpe nanti orang baru datang mesti lebih bagus.

I end the conversation with smile and salam while holding tears from drop in front of them. Deep inside my heart, I love all of them but my job ends and I should leave. I don't know how much they meant for the words but I wish it was a good meant from them. :)

Four months back, before I left Sabah, there was a one guy told me that I should be back or the meaning was I should stay for much longer. Its either extended the period of my working time or staying for a new job. Oh I feel good for appreciation by people surround but I could not stay far from the place that I belong to.

A month back, I left a few places which it given me a lot of opportunities to calm and *muhasabah diri*. The day that I left those places, they wave hand for a separation where we don't know whether we had chance to meet again! Again, denied myself of the sadness from separated.

A few weeks back, I'm losing my best room mate by moving out to a better place that called *home*. My heart shaking for her gone but hey! she still alive, she is having a good life and she wish me to be the same way that she had. Girl! you gonna make it. Let smile again :)

A week back, I met one that I love most. He still the same as before he left. 'I miss him a lot '
Should I tell him that I miss him all the time... Nope! cos he can feel it.

Every places I went to, brought me a lot of sweet sweet moment together! Its very hard hah to let it go. Sometimes we strong enough to face the *bye bye* moment but sometimes we never care what *bye bye* means for. It just come and go like a man walk the sideways.

I admit! I'm the bad one in saying goodbye. I don't want to say a word of leave but I'm saying I'm gonna miss! Its hard when people around you appreciate you most while you realized you are not giving them all your best. But maybe, the sincerity cover up the weaknesses.

I learn! Learn to be a good one among the best... I know it is not easy to get people to like me. Not all people will like us. But they do! They find a pleasure to work with me and mingling with them was the best experience I should never forget!

So hey, let's live in a cool life. Forget to cry and sad. Let's find happiness together then we make it fun :) Insyaallah we gonna find it!