Time that I past everyday was a gold that I should appreciate more than anything I had around. Those the moment I spent with and been through was a beautiful moment and sometimes should I say its too wonderful to describe. Alhamdulillah Allah *kurniakan* kebahagiaan for me as the chosen one among thousand. Again! syukur.
Despite the moment I had just for a second to smile and laugh, I still can feel the different in deep inside of my heart. The different between calm and belah bahagi. and I chose *calm* to stay still and wish I wont loss it. I am sure I will holding it till end of my life.
Today, when the heart feel bad, when head stuck with things, when eyes contain of tears, there is no calm anymore, there is no consideration, there is a war fighting against heart and I feel bad.
But another side of my heart still had the calm. where did it come from? Definitely. Allah s.w.t
Now, I doubt myself! could I be a strong person? confused! But I pray and keep praying and Allah give me His *sign*. I fight back and I calm. I calm. I calm!
Tears is only reason for me to cry but Allah is the only reason I still alive. No matter how much pain I had, no matter how much test I been through and no matter hard life I faced, I still know Allah with me. He is the One who calm me in any circumstances... and I calm!
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