emotional disturbance

i am so damn bored today...huh!!! keep thinking of going out or just stay at home with lappy watching lifetime movie or just roll on bed or reading blogs, playing games ah...i dont know it such a suck.. living at this life gonna make me really crazy, theres no one to talk too, and even to laugh..haiya..that's my life for another 4 weeks in Sabah. as i was alone, there are so much feeling come, a lil homesick, memory of the past, smiling thinking of the funniest thing that suddenly came, mom and dad, day out with my sayang2 and never to forget You..

huh!!!! how's life??that people always asking me when they text me or leave me a message in my mail, when they call me...well this is my life now...pretty bored right!!! nothing good.. but i keep survive till the end of the day. maybe now i hate that so much but soon after i'm back i gonna miss the moment here. i'm sure i will!!!!

forget about what has happen last week is the hardest thing perhaps!!! emotional disturbances...that what i faced last 5 days. huh!!it was worse feeling i ever had. scolding the students, unmotivated to work yet not really in conversation with anyone. all i do is just smile and sitting alone thinking of home. bad bad bad!!!!! i know how much worse when you had emotional disturbance, it just not work, study, socialize but its affect your behavior too..same goes to me..fortunately i'm not that severe and not kind of going to be an emotional disturbance but it just kind of stress a bit about work. i'm chilling myself now!!! having myself a stress management that i always do to my patient and i'm applied that to me with some relaxation therapy... hah....heaven.. :)

another 2 weeks to go to work before going back to KL. cant wait to be home, meet my mom dad and sisters and my sayang2..... love that.. :*

i hope i can be that patience to wait the 2 weeks and have more cheer in my day... and hope not so much stress come up after this.. hah i really want my life back!!! i really want myself back...
i want to laugh at loud, i want to have fun with my sayang2, i wanna make a lie to my sayang2, i wanna a feeling of manja a bit..., i wanna have a good meal on every my mealtime, i wanna my bed with bantal busuk, i wanna everything back!!!!!!!!! God help me, keep me strong in another 4 weeks here.... ooh..:(

pray for a good thing...amin...