again..i repeat!

Sometimes when come to gila gila punya otak..i started to post the annoying status on my facebook. Yet it never same like you read in previous entry... Its annoying but its not to be hated...

Well, i make this entry short and clear so that you wont get yourself bother to my post as i am very good in writing a long entry since mengarut mengarut is one of my best..err

I point here. People misunderstood me when i put 'my sayang sayang'..i repeat *my sayang sayang*.. It wasn't a guy, a man, or anything related to the sex of male... Let me tell you again that *my sayang sayang was my best girl friends that i trust most and the person that i could share anything about myself...

Hope this will stop you for making a judgement. The person i love is only one instead of family and i called him as my love.

Don't need to describe much about love...as you might not want to hear much from me... Hope this entry satisfy you......

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Learnt and change

I know most of us had our social page or dalam erti kata mudah facebook, twitter, my space, friendster, and etc..well think that much more than what i had listed but there are the only page i own. Friends here and there..added and increase, exciting knowing people though we have no idea who are those people we approved to list..

After 3 years own those pages, i could say there are pro and cons.. I bet you guys out there agree with me.. When my mother advised me to be very careful with these pages i was the one said its nothing to be worried but then after quite long hold the words i realized that mother was right... Not to say that i have been cheated or what, it just wasting a lot of time and even money...

Tell me if these wrong? I myself experienced those. Cheated? Dont say it never happen..it is all the time and we ever heard about it.. Didn't you? Well nothing to debate here but just telling you what i had faced and heard so that we could remind each other...inshaallah..

I dont close my page...i still actively using my pages though i am the one here merungut sana sini... Well this is what i want to share with you that how much difficult myself to stop being addicted to these...

Instead of wasting or whatever about being addicted to social pages there is one thing annoyed me from people i have read their status. Emm dont tell me you never felt the same like i feel... Its crazy sometimes when i have to annoy my friend for what they have stated on their page..tell you this is bad...

So, i also being so overacted long time ago...expressed the anger, mushy around about heart feeling, seek for attention, dreaming alone...well that is what when excitement take place without think much and wise...and at the end you feel ashamed cos you know what? Friend listed in your page was your parents, teachers, friends and relatives.. What if the judge went wrong from what you try to convey... Please to myself and i  have changed..and you?tepuk dada tanya minda...

Too much bebel.. Please dont mind it, the first thing you will view when there is a new friend request was the picture... Shook me if you dont? But i am... Its not to tell you that i am choosing the face but i chose to recognize the person in the first place and tell you i only approve my friend. Before i miss this... Please behave and jaga sopan dan santun.. Put your picture as priceless and put it as high as no one can be afford to see those... Got me? Kata yang agak kasar..janganlah berposing posing maut dan jagalah adap bergambar...errr ada ke adab bergambar... Sesungguhnya seseorang manusia yang berperasaan malu dan imannya menguasai segala nafsu maka dia antara orang orang yang sentiasa memelihara kesuciaan dan keharmonian diri...

One friend told me this...seorang wanita yang baik tidak perlulah menunjuk nunjukkan dirinya kepada orang lain kerana kebaikannya melalui kata kata adalah kecantikan yang abadi... I take his words and he is the one keep his words well...

Before i end, people said i am not alim but why i wrote those words...  May He guide them. Ameen

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run and miss step

Countless. Most of my post describe how much busy i am in my day since working here..refer to the hospital...yes! I am...sometimes it ever  crossed to mind to quit and look out for another but think back of hope and pray...i should say i must thank Him for giving me a better life based on work, friends and opportunity and mostly is getting closed to Him all the time....

Hurm.. Never look back to the past as my sayang fara ever told me..never turn back cos past was history and let present be the best and guidance for future... And this remind me to her as we go far from one another. She was married.. Will be a mother soon and i never blame her for the miss but i understood that the change came from the status we hold now.. But one think i learnt the prayer will always with us..

Two weeks back i am running here and there. Completed all the responsible i hold.. The moment i suffer from this time, mom and dad was the person who supported me a lot..they sacrificed all their time and love for make averything went perfect. Behind the lethargy, anxious, hopes, and worries they gave me their best prayer.. Oh this is how much i heart them.. What on earth you if you forget to syukur? Having parents around, love and sacrifice for your best compared to others who walk alone and live in ignorance... How glad myself to be bless by Him with giving me this beautiful anugerah *family*..

Despite having good time, my heart never stop worry of the unwell father. My prayer always to him... Get a good health and a better faith.. I keep pray for them in every of my doa.. Ameen.

Yet, a few things need to get prepare... Back to school..alhamdulillah passing the first semester and a few weeks more two enter a new semester.. The wishes are getting better result, more effort and more rajin.. Err refer to previous experience....hehe

Last..today having interview to move one step to be permanent...er hope everything goes well... Well, nothing much pressure just keep move on and more effort..inshaallah... He with me...

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6 months

Last August 2011 when i received a called from a lady from HR. I was panic and that time my mind started running out. I'm not ready for a change, i don't want to move, i'm afraid to be in the place where the rumours said about stress and tough. It worried me all the time till the day i came for my first day in work. The moment that i hate was introducing myself in front of crowd. Seriously, the nerves bite my body... Err....

Now, after 6 months working plus after renew my contract, i'm getting to love this job. It is too perfect to leave... :( despite the never ending report, the non stop incoming new admission, the fussy elderly which like to be pampered and sometimes hate to be closed with and the arrogant face by the tittle of dato or tan sri they hold..and ect... But there are still a sweet moment i shall keep and need to be remember..

I love to see their smile, i love when they laughed for my jokes though they are in pain, i love when they start their words by reminding one another about life, promise, advice, recipe, experience and many other things. Once we tight the bond we shared a lot more, especially when tears drop this really taught my soul to be stronger cos in my eyes they are more painful than what i felt...

One man came for assessment and i was impressed by his personality, the neat man, the polite language, the very friendly with smile, the perfect people who companied him here and there.. We had a long conversation.. He was amazing in his life.. He was a successful man.. I said to him.. 'it is so perfect and you the lucky man'. He replied me, with his eyes in me.. Yes i am lucky but i only the old man. 

These moment was adorable, instead of my responsible on work, it gave me lesson in each day i stayed.. True! Today i share my happiness and tomorrow my prayer followed them in the other world. MAY HE WITH THEM...

Today, tomorrow and day after tomorrow my prayer always with them.. I'm doing with all my heart, jujur dan ikhlas kerana Allah. Ameen.. Dan semoga segala yang aku berikan di terimaNya... Insyaallah....

Being in geriatric is not easy as you think..but based on niat and honest.. There is nothing stop you! But remember geri is the people you have to appreciate most..

Sincere,

DIEBA

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disable doesn't mean unable

If we only have a faith in Him, we will enjoy life to the fullest despite all the worries we have to face each day.

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bitter

Next time i meet you, i promise you i won't hurt you so badly... Forget this bitter harder please for my forgiveness... Resque me from my misery..... :( tell you this is bad!

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Those days

almost a year i left Sabah days... how fast time flies but the memories of time and the nostalgia in Sabah still stand in my mind. how i miss all those days.. it is not the only day, but i miss people i knew for my stayed. I miss them.

sometimes, i ever wonder why those time meant to me instead for the other places i ever stay. the assumption plays around but it never satisfied me cos i still look for the answer. i haven't found once. but my heart touched by couple of things that i hold tight till now. may He keep strengthen my faith and patience. ameen~

i wanna come back to those places i ever reached if any rezeki i have. i love being in those time. i wanna meet those people who gave a lot meant, people who actually gave me silence support from their acted, motivation, and prayer. how i appreciate myself for the opportunities from Him for being in those days and got a lot of hikmah from these travel.

insyaallah, if the luck still in my side.. i'll be back and i'll make sure the next time i reach the place, i'll make it better from last time.... again, insyaallah...