As the time passed by

Sunday morning, Kota Kinabalu with cold and heavy raining have make my plan to go out been cancel because it seem will not subside and getting more heavy rain. Huh! Seriously, bored out of my mind. What is there to do? Lying on bed with lappy as usual get I bored ... :| hate it when the time turns to be like last 4 weeks... again I hate the day! Luckily, its only 2 weeks left before leave Kota Kinabalu with peaceful and happy.

Did I? I don’t know whether I am happy to leave since there is lots of things that coming within this time. Meeting people, knowing places, mingling with some friends, bumping a few persons and oh I was really feels reluctant to leave this place. Finally I said that! Can’t believe how I am saying that I really sad to leave...

Okay forget about leaving here. Hurm I think it’s been a week that I haven’t blogging right? It’s not because I don’t have idea to write, it just I feel lazy to do so and I don’t have mood to start blogging. Yes, what else to say? If you at home having a good holiday with your lovely family, you should to spend it wise and use the time as much as you can with them. Isn’t it right?

Within last 4 weeks, lots of things happen. And the best part is, when my Sayang Farra is getting engaged. How lovely it is? She did ask me to come but I really can’t make it since I was in KK. Huh, babe, I really want to join you in your day. But I have promised her to come for her wedding. I will!

I don’t know with who she is engaged with? Hah how terrible I am. :( I knew that it was a person that she is falling with about the last semester we in UiTM. And I thought that it just a puppy love. Hohoho...and I was wrong, they are together at last. And I pray for her blessedness. :) And few days after, I heard news that my classmate in college has been engaged too. Surprisingly! Haha and again, she are engaged with the person that we don’t know as she is just having a crush with our junior. OMG!! Am I too busy body? hahahhaha... :D

That’s good news that I’ve been received and there is also a bad news that I got when I arrived KL last week. As I arriving KL, my sayang Kak Dhiah told me that she had been offer to be a lecturer in UiTM at Penang Campus. Huh!!! Means, she is going to move out. Again, losing one of my mates after Kak Rini. Yah! It’s so sad to let them go actually, even we did not knowing quite much time, but we love each other at that time. My guess!! Sigh, I should know that people come and go, and when the time had come, she will be gone. :(

That’s friend story. How about me? Nothing change and still same. But just have a lil good thing right now. Knowing someone!! Who is he? Someone that I know. And I am trying to give a chance and space for my heart to let him come and pray that he is the right person. Insya allah :) it still new and still need time to work on. And I think I don’t want to talk much as it just new to me and let the time tell us more...

For this time let the story with happy ending like my sayang Farra told me. Life is not to be regrets with past but let the past be the teacher to correct the mistake that we made then keep us strong no matter how much obstacles and barriers we faced. Insyaallah God will help :)

Insyaallah, Let's Recite a Doa

Subahanallah... just reading a newspaper last night and view my fb account? so many walls that posted Selamatkan pelajar dan rakyat Malaysia di Mesir and as normal i just ignore it maybe it just a little news or just something that not important for me to know. God my bad! i was wrong till i read a newspaper and watched news at tv3 Buletin Utama. MasyaAllah. what is actually happend?? there is a riot in Mesir? How about Cairo and Alexandria? place that mostly our students are there...Oh the place and people is in danger. God, panic suddenly came. and in sudden i pray God to help them and protect them from all inconvenience.

Huh!! as i know there is nothing i can help them from here but the only thing that i can do is just pray for their safety and hope everything will be going to fine and calm. insyaallah....

Last Sunday, my sayang Tikah did text me and told me that she is worried about her sister in Mesir but she didnt tell me what is actually happen and i was guess that it just a family matter but i was fall behind without know the news. hah my bad again!!! last night i text her and asked her again about her sister. how she's going? did she fine? My sayang said, her sister did text her on Sunday and that was the last message from her sister and she cannot reach her till now. Ya Allah, how she feel?? she must be really worry right. Oh no!!!!

As we know, all the communication have been cut, plus the internet have been blocked and all the food supply is really hard to get... oh how trouble they are? and the place is really scary and was in chaos. The bad thing is when the prisoners are everywhere and without police to preserve over the people and the worse is our siswi in there is in so much dangerous when i was reading that one of our siswi have been rape...Oh is it for true? Ya Allah please keep them away from trouble.

As i read also, there is a gunshot everywhere its really scary and they are need to stay at home and stay quiet to avoid from the prisoner to come.

and i have read that the evacuation is in action. even though there is still a problem with evacuating the students but they still trying too. Huh!!! :( praying that everything goes well and nobody left out. Those who are already come back alhamdulillah and now its time to pray for the rest.

Dear readers and malaysian, lets raise our hands together and recite a doa, hope God permudhakan segala urusan in Cairo and protect them and give a safety for all the people in mesir. Even there is no our relatives or fellow in there but please spread the words and pray for them cos they are part of us as Malaysian and Muslim. Insyaallah Allah is watching them.

Let us together cos our life it just not about you......

http://krisismesirnasibrakyatkita.blogspot.com/
http://www.facebook.com/pages/Selamatkan-pelajar-dan-rakyat-Malaysia-di-Mesir
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http://english.aljazeera.net/watch_now/

Choices

too many confusing choices in our life and sometimes we dont really know which is the best part of choosing perhaps we do afraid of choosing those.. why should i be afraid of choosing? Its either i want that way, or another way right? but the thing is which is better for me??its confuse and its really haunt me. Every time i’m facing this matter i would just quiet and go with the flow without choosing one of them and at the end i’m make myself in trouble. Oh my bad!!!!!

Life??i’m choosing life with working. Messing up my mind thinking about job, students, posting area, people i have met, people that i treated, people that i need to discus with, and its really tested my patience all the time. That’s what i chose for my life. Working after finish study, its really hard for me to make decision actually when mom ask me to continue study and i have meet a problem of choosing study or work....huh!!! finally i choose to work first but then now i’m thinking of further study. As usual, mom is the first person who is happy with my decision and i think its a good choice for me. And i will make it till the end and reach the success.... J

Friends??i got lot of friends...but know what? My past i only chose to be friend with the people who is good looking, good attitude and the best part is people who only in group of smart and intelligent. And ignoring the people at the last number of class in school. How bad i am??its like a discrimination right. I never talk and even look at them.. but after i’m entering in UiTM and studying in Occupational Therapy, learning about psychology, social, communication skill and code of ethic, i’m getting to change the perception and start to mingle with others doesn't matter who you are but still be aware and chose to be friend with nice people....and leave the people who have bad intention and taking advantage from me. That i always keeps in mind.... J and now i’m happy cos i had a very wonderful friends in life who always help me and be my side whenever i need them. And to know what friend is the important list in my life after family......

Partners??? I actually dont prefer to talk about somebody special in my life...i dont know, maybe because its quite bother me since i have a sadness and disappoint experience in the past with someone that i really care and love with all my heart. L its past and i should not let the past haunting me, its time to make a move and look forward. Time to start a new chapter and make the story with a happy ending and no tears in every sentences and let words make people glinting in a laughter when they read it. There are few people make me laugh, make me happy, make my heart blooming and some of them wanna have a connection, wanna a serious commitment, wanna share the heart together but to tell i really dont know which one to chose..its not choosing one of you, but afraid of choosing to start a new or still in this way.. i dont know... and i always pray God and asked for help but it just i didnt get the direction yet. And i’m not in rush cos time is needed now. And the only one that i chose now is U.

i have learned from my bad choices and next time wont settle for anything less than what I deserved... :|

a big smile on an exhausted face

alhamdulillah... sebulan dah pon lepas dan tak sangka cepat betul nak masuk February...huh!! sungguh cepat masa berlalu..rasa macam baru je semalam kita sambut new year kan... takpela minggu depan pon kita akan sambung new year jugak... Chinese New Year... tahun baru jugak kan tapi bagi kalendar Cina la......

emmmm...and yang paling penting esok balik KL....ahakz!!! hari yang di nanti nantikan, akhirnya....seronok betul perasaan hingga tak terkata la..alamak terhiperbola plak... em disebabkan excited nak balik KL, time nie la demam datang menyerang aku...huh dah dua hari demam, telan pil pon tak baik baik jugak di tambah dengan KK yang asyik hujan je...and ditambah jugak dengan aku yang selalu main hujan aka terkena hujan.....apa nak buat kan...

arini balik kerja sembahyang asar, tukar baju and cabut ke KK...mana lagi pasar philipine la...sebab nak beli barang yang dipesan mama and abah.... and nak menikmati mertabak yang dari haritue lagi kempunan nak rasa....akhirnya dapat jugak makan. tapi rasanya mertabak kat Kl lagi best kot dari KK...kat sini mertabak die inti sayur kobis and telur dan yang tak bestnya, mertabak ni digoreng...so too oily bagi aku... and dorang makan ngan sos cili..tula penambah sedap mertabak tu....ok jela tapi takla superb...

sebelum ke pasar Philippine aku berjalan nun jauh ke KK plaza..ingatkan dekat rupanya jauh ke depan... orang cerita je dekat tapi bila jalan kaki cam aku ni memang confirm penat tahap dewa...haish!!!! pecah peluh gakla ditambah dengan kaki aku yang dah melecet sebab pakai selipar. ingatkan pakai selipar ok, rupanya lagi sakit....sepanjang jalan aku terhenjut henjut...
mesti tertanya tanya kenapala aku sanggup jalan kaki jauh jauh nak pegi KK plaza.. apa je yang best kat sana??? actually ade orang bagitau brooch kat sana murah and lawa... so disebabkan aku ni excited and tak sabar, ape lagi pegila..cari cari kedai kat dalam tu, samapi je kat kedai tu, belek belek mane yang best, hasilnya hampeh..takde pon yang berkenan di hati..memangla murah tapi tak lawa la......huh penat jeeeeee.....

then patah balik ke pasar...belila makanan untuk dinner then terus ke plaza wawasan and balik hostel...huh really exhausted...sangat~~~~~~ lepas mandi and solat terus packing bag untuk ke KL...nasib baikla ade orang teman aku berkemas takdela kebosanan dalam kepenatan....

done!!!!!i'm done packing...penat sangat arini...tapi hati aku gembira....so tak ingat sangat kaki yang sakit, kepala yang berpusing pusing, tangan yang lenguh, mata yang terkulat kulat....hahhahahaha itu tandanya aku dah mengantuk....hehhehehehhe

okayla gtg, esok kene bangun awal. flight pagi pagi and tak sabar nak jejak KL....and home sweet home... :)

Aku Tetap Menunggumu

Aku takkan lelah menunggu
Hingga waktu ajal menjemputku
Takkan pernah ada sesalku untuk menunggumu

Aku harus tetap menunggu
Hingga nanti aku berbaring
Sampai mati aku akan tetap menunggumu

Ingin ku gapai bulan dan ku petik bintang
Ingin ku berikan semua hanya untukmu
Agar kau tahu besarnya cintaku kepada dirimu

Ku ingin kau tahu tentang perasaanku
Ku ingin kau tahu besar cinta padamu
Ingin ku berikan sisa waktuku
Dan sisa umurku sampai mati

Aku harus tetap menunggu
Hingga nanti aku berbaring
Sampai mati aku akan tetap akan tetap menunggumu

Ingin ku gapai bulan dan ku petik bintang
Ingin ku berikan semua hanya untukmu
Agar kau tahu besarnya cintaku kepada dirimu

Ku ingin kau tahu tentang perasaanku
Ku ingin kau tahu besar cinta padamu
Ingin ku berikan sisa waktuku
Dan sisa umurku

Ingin ku gapai bulan dan ku petik bintang
Ingin ku berikan semua hanya untukmu
Agar kau tahu besarnya cintaku kepada dirimu

Ingin ku gapai bulan dan ku petik bintang
Ingin ku berikan semua hanya untukmu
Agar kau tahu besarnya cintaku kepada dirimu

Ku ingin kau tahu tentang perasaanku
Ku ingin kau tahu besar cinta padamu
Ingin ku berikan sisa waktuku
Dan sisa umurku sampai mati

Irwansyah - Tentang Perasaanku

sebuah keinsafan

bila berseorangan macam macam perkara yang terlintas di fikiran aku. tiba tiba teringat akan sebuah perpisahan yang berlaku hari jumaat hari tue. perpisahan manusia dan alam nyata. huh memang sedih bila lihat kematian saudara seislam. terus aku tersentak dan menunduk seketika, jika esok itu lah takdir ku. ya allah aku mohon padamu ya allah panjangkan umurku.

terimbas semula dosa yang masih belum terhapus, pahala yang sekecil zarah ,amal yang belum cukup, iman yang belum tetap, hati yang kusut, oh tuhan aku mohon darimu beri waktu tapi aku sedar bila ajal itu tiba, pergi tetap pergi.... Masya allah....

selesai solat fardhu aku memohon doa padamu ya allah.....

Ya Allah, sesungguhnya aku memohon kepada-Mu seluruh kebaikan, baik yang

sekarang maupun yang akan datang , yang aku ketahui maupun tidak aku ketahui.
Dan memohon perlindungan kepada-Mu dari seluruh kejahatan, baik yang
sekarang maupun yang akan datang , yang aku ketahui maupun yang tidak aku
ketahui. Ya Allah sesungguhnya aku memohon kebaikan yang diminta oleh HambaMu dan Nabi-Mu, Dan aku berlindung kepada-Mu dari kejahatan yang hamba-Mu
dan Nabi-Mu berlindung kepa-Mu darinya. Ya Allah , sesungguhnya aku memohon
kepada-Mu Surga dan apa-apa yang dapat mendekatkan kepadanya, baik berupa
ucapan maupun perbuatan. Dan aku berlindung kepada-Mu dari neraka dan apaapa yang dapat mendekatkan kepadanya, baik berupa ucapan dan perbuatan. Dan
aku memohon kepada-Mu agar Engkau menjadikan seluruh ketetapan yang telah
Engkau tetapkan merupakan suatu kebaikan.
amin....

manusia pernah jahil, manusia pernah lakukan kesilapan, manusia pernah leka, pernah alpa, pernah lalai, tapi sesungguhnya ketahuila bahawa tuhan itu maha pengampun, maha esa, dan tuhan itu maha kaya.... pulanglah dan bersujud padanya ya allah.......

Give me some sunshine

lagu nie ditujukan khas untuk aku :)




chill chill dieba :)