Match and Right

staring at those timetable on my desk, it's totally give my head spinning. well, got lot of plan instead of the work list that haven't been done for quite long ago. seriously, time so quick and i'm running out to the due date. oh yadda yadda.... whatever my feeling right now, i need to ignore since books and papers are primary at this moment.

er... should i stop writing? upp, let me finish the entry first and make it this quick then i'll continue revision.

meanwhile, my friends spoke about married, since one of our house mate going to married soon, and some of them are preparing for their engagement, 'Err nak cakap dia pon nak kahwin jugakla tue'. hah, but i haven't plan anything at all. okay lets get back to the point. i have seen many of my friends got married at the young age. some at the time after school and have a few children now. and some of them is just waiting for their day. its really wonderful when seeing how excited them in preparing for their dream wedding. some wanted it to be like wedding of the year, some said wanna it just be an average and let the 'wajib' come first. well, its from their opinion. but some, are stress out of preparing the wedding. sometimes, she said she wanna give up in planning since the family also won't give any hands. well, i wouldn't know much but advice is useful for her for making the heart go strong and make the plan to be a better than what she expected and felt at this moment.

i haven't experienced this kind of plan. maybe yes, but its long time ago when i was a little girl in my uncle's wedding and i am not actively involved in others wedding too and even other relatives since we are too busy in work and everything done by wedding planner. my family, i have a sister which is busy with her job and haven't ready for the further stage, so we haven't experienced. but i believe it must be so meriah and huru hara with mom and aunts busy with plan and some of the talks.. well, mothers' talk.....

dream of a beautiful wedding and have a last end with partner. I dream too! i have quest some of my friends, how life after marriage? they reply me in smile and it shows how much indah and bahagia and especially when they are waiting for the first baby to come. and suddenly i laugh in deep heart. can't believe, my friend going to be a mother. how quick time fly leaving everything behind. and i sometimes miss the moment when we in school. but i know, time never go back... that what my sayang fara always told me. and she's going to be a mother too.

i ever thought this sometimes, how people get divorce? how people curang with their partner while they are the one who choose to marry with? urm.. but i respect people who keep their love till end. i ever since much much in Geri's. How loving the husband sitting besides wife even though he knows the wife wouldn't know he was there. He keep waiting till the wife go. i love seeing them. and i want the same someday! :( the same in a better moment with my love.

i thank Him for giving me 'heart' which i can fall in with someone right, with someone He made for me. this feeling go right cos every time love come, it makes me closest to Him.

Ya Allah, satukanlah hatiku

dengan iman, taqwa, dan keyakinan kepadaMu.

Jadikanlah aku suami soleh yang sentiasa memimpin dan isteri solehah yang sentiasa membantu.

Mewahkanlah rezekiku dan kurniakanlah aku zuriat yang beriman, bertaqwa dan beramal soleh.

Semoga kehidupanku dilimpahi Nur Iman

dan dipenuhi Al-Muwaddah dan Ar-Rahmah didunia dan diakhirat,

Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin

Percaya pada Qada dan Qadar Nya. Kerana dia telah tetapkan setiap dari kita pasangan supaya kita dapat membimbing antara satu sama lain.

Siapa yang paling bisa Memaklumi, Memaafkan dan Memotivasi kita ke arah yang lebih baik Insya Allah itu jodoh kita

Doa dan munajat adalah jalan yang terbaik.

wallahualam....

Deeper

" Ya Allah,

sampaikan salam rinduku

kepada ......,

sehingga aku menjadi kerinduannya..

Amin. "

doa nabi yusuf kepada zulaikha. :)

sometimes

I may be not a good one but I jump back to be a better one

On pen and papers

I am nervous! I technically at this time had very severe anxiety against my final examination.

maybe after leaving school for quite long, that is why my heart keep beating and mind contained of worries.

Well, I am busy now. it's time to start the revision and try answering a few past year papers. seriously i am terribly afraid of facing the exam after few years left. Remember those time back when i really stay up the whole night and studying so hard meanwhile, at this time i just have only 4 hours/day to finish the study. plus with the lethargic face and mental tiredness. i don't think i could have done finishing the study well. 

Hurm but i learnt from the words 'never give up! i still struggle in completing my revision. Finally yes, i did it with 'sabar' (patience) and 'berkat' (bless) by mama's and  abah's doa.

okay, got a go... need to get some sleep and will update more pada masa lapang. or after my exam done!

Pray for my best. Insya Allah...ameen :)

Towards His Jannah

each step i am making in my life brought me to a better way although sometimes i astray from the right with my own flaws but turn back by 'iman' (faith) and 'hidayah' (guidance) from Him.

Alhamdulillah

another day to blink eyes and 'syukur' (thank) Him for making me alive and have a great sunshine with a cool air. A step further for 2012 after leaving such a beautiful 2011 with bliss instead of memorizing the bitter harder struggle in life. But, the strength He gave me more than the allegation that He planned.

my friend asked me in his emails, what did I do for celebrate the new day and what did I plan for this coming day and until next 365 days. I told him, my plan still same. I still continue my work, my study, live in the same house, doing the same routine and have a 'lepak' day like the same as I am with my sayang sayang.

But, there is still something adding in. Like other people say; "saya nak ada azam baru tahun ni.", or speak to the inside "apa azam baru aku". and i would say the same in mine..haha... 'nak jugak tue'. Despite in 'hakikat', our resolve remain the same even time fly over the day by day. what we wish for every single day was thing that every moment we never left. It is to be with Allah! That always be in heart and every soul. How could we be with Him? Death!

Speak about death, are we ready for the time. i am sorry, this is quite typical as about Qada and Qadar. Hidup, Ajal dan Jodoh! everything had set by Him, as a slave, we 'redha' (accept) what He planned for us. But, He is not as cruel as He set for us, He gave us a chance to make everything go perfect and better than what we want. He gave us hand to recite a doa, He asked us to kneel Him so that He remains in soul. That was good enough to live in His world and keep alive besides death, but do we obey to it? Some did, some don't! have you ever wonder why?

Because we never thought of His Jannah. because we forget the responsible in our deeds toward Him. That is why, nothing lead us to His Jannah. and not even a flash of His Jannah.

one friend had told me how she afraid of facing death. neither me felt that as a surprised cos i felt the same either. others, may giving you the same words cos we never know how we end our breath. Is Him to decide. and it us to make our end to Jannah.

2012, may be different a little but maybe huge as we no idea how He going to set. But I always pray to Him to make everyday in further to be better and bless. Insha Allah.. So there is no wrong to make a wishlist, you may do hundred for what you had listed but remember to never put Him aside. In any matter!!!!

I bless by Him for fulfill me His gift. Family, Friends, Health, Work, Study and the main Life! Wealth! wouldn't be primary but still needed as long as no go deflected! Ameen.

Here i leave you with a few link which I share you some of my reading..Jannah points, khutbah, and Jannah.

-Happy New Year-

 Sincere,
dieba

Interpretation

liking someone doesn't mean you have to be lovers, sometimes you just have to be friends

For Them

Just a lil while watch this video...so sweet....