The other side

There is a time when you feel so lack and you need someone to be there but you cant find anybody to listen. Upset!

There is a time when you feel so lack and you need a hug but there is no one to hold you. Sobber!

There is a time when you feel so weak and you need someone to motivate you but there is no other people who understand the pain you keep. Poor!

There is a time when you need to calm but there is one ruin it. Sad!

There is a time when you are sick but there is no one to be there to heal you but make you feel worse. Bad!

There is a time when you feel you can never handle all the pain and frustration but in the other side there is always a hope and help. Him!

Secebis

Rasa malas yg menebal menyebabkan blog ni terpinggir.. Kesian!

Alhamdulillah 2013 berjalan dgn baik.result exam pun semakin baik, suasana keje bersama kanak2 pun is getting improve...well since dah lama tgalkan peads area.so mula mula agak kelam kabut tp bila tgk telatah budak nie yg lucu...rasa smgt balik and its actually a good therapy..

Semester baru soon...get myself busy balik.seriously tak sabar sgt nak hbis blaja...boleh spend weekend dgn penuh bermakna tp dlm hati masih nak smbung lagi smpai master..tp insyaallahlaaaa...

Parents....since daddy fall sick, i have been so mess.hari hari rasa nak blik kg....huuu sebab nak jaga abah......but after heard that he get better....syukur sgt.......

Friends.i have bestie!!!they are very kind people...syukur sebab dorangla yg sama sama membimbing diri nie........yeeeee

Love.......my love never away from Him....Allah...

Jodoh.sampai seru nanti adalah ;)

Gtg..........

Bayang bayang

Think that something would haunt me this year and ahead.

Keep the promise or just leave it cos i havent seen any of changes within this period.

Or

Should i give more time to let the promise come through.

Believe in fate, believe with Him!

langkah pertama 2013

selamat tahun baru.

not too late to wish you happy new year.

seriously, hidup sekarang sangat bz..super duper bz. 

alhamdulillah satu telah selesai. -----> refer to research proposal. selepas berhempas pulas menyiapkan research selama dua minggu dan akhirnya got severe pain at wrist akibat terlalu banyak sangat menaip dan menulis....tapi akhirnya dah selamat sampai ke bilik lecturer....

tapi.

exam is still on. 

so tak boleh nak happy sangat since banyak lagi yang kena study. huh tak sabar nak habis exam and nak rest nak enjoy..hehe... 

ok just pray for me...semoga jawapan jawapan dalam exam nanti betol la ea...

;)

2013... area baru untuk tahun ini.... pediatric aka kanak kanak... 

oh serius memang mencabar! 

paling best is daripada orang tua terus tukar kepada kanak kanak. memang satu perubahan yang sangat drastik tapi tetap kene teruskan..

minggu pertama di pediatric. serius sangat2 blur... apa nak buat dengan kanak-kanak ni especially yang tak reti nak dengar cakap and manipulative. aduh! geramsssss rasa nak cubit cubit je... 

tapi nasib baikla anak orang kan..

tapi kalo anak sendiri pun takdelah macam tue...hehehhe

saje hiperbola je..

alhamdulillah so far tak jumpa lagi yang style tendang tendang, ludah ludah and yang paling tak tahan yang suka menangis meraung-raung...

oh itu memang tak tahan..

bayangkanlah dalam satu jam treatment takkan nak dengar nangis je..

boleh bengkak telinga...

tu baru sorang kalo 6 orang yang datang aritu sumenya camtue...

selamat...

huh...

bidang baru yang masih perlu diexplore....

banyak n sangat banyak..

pediatric bukan je deal ngan kanak kanak tapi ngan mak n ayah dorang jugak..

ada yang baik, ada yang ntah......tak tau nak describe...

hopefully perjalanan kat peads nie berjalan baik la.

harap harapla i will enjoy my day.

okla, gtg....nak sambung study...

one time

pernah tak ada ketika you feel so lack.

whatever you did you feel it wrong.

whenever you think, you think yourself feel so blame.

whoever you meet you couldn't say 'hey they were my friends' but in fact you prefer yourself to be alone.

pernah tak ada ketika you feel so doubt.

whatever you did you feel it wrong.

whenever you make decision you can't actually decide.

whoever you meet, friends, fellow, oh whoever! you can't really trust them.

pernah tak ada ketika you feel so mess.

whatever you did you feel it wrong.

whenever you want to do something, it stop you.

whoever you talk too, you feel so annoying not because of what they said but for yourself who can't concentrate on the converse.

pernah tak ada ketika you feel so upset.

whatever you did you feel it wrong.

whenever you wanna calm the wave shake the peace.

whoever come to chill you, it can't really heal it. 

pernah tak ada ketika you feel so grateful.

whatever the disappointing you face, you never cry.

whenever you feel so down, there are people come to persuade you.

whoever they are, I pray Allah to protect from trouble.

kajian............

its researh feverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!

seriously sangat sangat stress dengan research proposal ni...

tak sabar nak habis sem 3 and hantar research proposal nie...

dah berpusing-pusing kepala nak siapkan...

aduh!!!

boleh tak nak upah orang buat research nie....

ok gtg

its time to be

nerdooooo

nite nite nite ;)

before it end

rasanya dah lama tak update blog. seriously sangat lama compared to my addicted in updating every single event last time. itulah, bila masa sering dicuri dengan kerja, assignment and etc. i just can't help it.

can't really blame them, it is all what life should be. 

enjoy!
sounds like tak ikhlas...daa

but i am happy what i had been through now.

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back to early 2012; 

when i got myself busy with work and study, nothing to be worry unless seat on exam. 

scary lol!

subjects was killing me, definitely referring to  the 'anatomy' and most is completed all the assignment.

bla bla bla...

semester 3. here i am! should thank God that i still survive until here while the rest  has drop the study due to.... many many things especially for those  who are married.

well, they might have a reason to leave and...

yaaa...

let them go!

while i stay, and keep moving :)

2012: 

things happen! a lot!

got my tears drop, been cheated, betrayed by people, hurts, cries, sober, heartbroken 

don't wanna describe all as it is annoyed.

i am annoyed to these feelings.

you may say the same, do you?

well, this is what i had take from what He set on me.

mungkin ada hikmah di sebalik luka dan duka.

the beginning was painful!

but part of it was a strength from my faith and prayer. 

then, i live and i survive.

:) :) ;)

can u see those smiley.

i am happy now!

for what He gave me, from what i convey!

i bow Him for 'syukur'

for giving a lot more from what i need

before 2012 end:

my birthday! i love telling about my birthday. nothing much special but the huge was i still breathing with people i love.

*all of them*

ain't it too special? 

Only God knows.

i move ahead and leave the hate

have a bless 
& 
happy new year

welcome 2012